Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Allah Maha Penyayang....

Bila Allah cepat makbulkan Doamu,
Maka DIA Menyayangimu,

Bila DIA Lambat Makbulkan doamu,
Maka DIA Ingin Mengujimu,

Bila DIA Tidak Makbulkan Doamu,
Maka Dia Merancang Sesuatu Yang lebih Baik Untukmu.

Oleh itu, Sentiasalah Bersangka Baik Pada ALLAH Dalam Apa Jua Keadaan Pun... Kerana Kasih sayang ALLAH Itu Mendahului KemurkaanNya. ."

Monday, July 14, 2008

GLC Cross Assignment...

It all started end of last April...

Got a email from my HR SVP on the program...tetiba gatal tangan nak apply..tanya hubby...dia fully support me..bukan apa..teringin nak rasa kerja kat tempat lain tapi tak mo resign TM coz takmo loose privilege of the housing loan at 4% interest rate..hehehehe...masa tu nak discuss ngan my boss, dia cuti plak...so i guess, what the heck...apply jer la...masa tu tak confident pon nak dapat...

Nak jadi citer..SVP dapat idea nak develop org HR thru this program...since aku jer org HR yg gatal tangan...dah jadi rezeki aku la nampaknya...it all went so fast...dateline submission was on 05/05/08..on the 7/5/08 i was called for the 1st briefing...

The objective of this program is actually to develop the future leaders in the GLC companies... adusss...besarnya tanggungjawab...masa dengar tu tetiba rasa cuak mula menyelinap dlm hati ni...besar expectation nak carry and deliver ni...there's 14 of us...so called THE "TALENTS"... malu rasanya nak ngaku talent tu...rasanya aku takde la seganaz tu...Initially ada 3 ladies...1 back out sbb nak ikut hubby ke oversea..tinggallah 2 org ladies jer dlm team ni...flowers among the thorns.. inferior???you tell me la...i think i'm the youngest..yg lain semua seniors..kekadang rasa menyesal apply tu ada gak mengetuk hati ni tapi aku kuatkan hati...i need to grab the chance and prove to everybody that i can do this...the most importantly i need to prove to my self... I CAN DO THIS...
this are the "TALENTS"

When my boss dapat tau aku dapat ni...dia terkejut habis..dia pon cam payah nak lepaskan aku...agaknya inilah terjadi bila kita dah terlalu comfortable dgn our work and people we work with..tengok reaction dia ni buat aku berbelah bagi...

I have to undergo 3 interviews to finally get posted...Initially my option that has been identified by Khazanah were Malaysia Airport and Celcom..both to lead a technical team function...masa aku dapat email dr coordinator on the 2 option tu...literally speaking...i drop my jaw..giler...aku ni grad marketing...buat kerja JR seumur hidup aku..tetiba nak suh masuk bidang technical...oh my god!!!!!aku giler tak confident...eventhough aku org HR...i know my way during interviews...still aku tak leh deliver...i'm trying to convince people to accept me to do something yg aku sendiri tak convinced? Ironic hah???

On 19/6/08 aku dapat tau aku tak dapat placement...so OK lah...takde rezeki..aku selalu buat solat hajat agar dipermudahkan urusan cross assignment ni utk aku...basically bila aku anggap bukan rezeki aku lah...and Allah knows what's the best for me and everybody around me...masa dapat tau ni bos aku happy la...aku pon seronot sebab tak jadi pergi and manage to make my boss happy (bukan nak bodek, tapi aku dah terlalu sayang kat dia...dia sedih...aku jadi sedih gak...)

Tapi sesungguhnya Allah maha mengetahui yang terbaik untukku..on 23/6/08, i was called by Khazanah kata aku kena posted to Khazanah..tapi akan ada interview gak..just for the formality...on the same tu gak aku kena summon ngadap CE..punya la kecut...sebelum ni kalu jumpa pon masa attend forum or talks shj...ni nak face to face...nak jadi lagi haru sbb lst minit...aku tak pakai pon official scarf TM tu...by the way, monday spttnya ladies kena pakai scarf TM and gents kena pakai tie TM...Dato' is a nice guy..it was just a chat between him and us the talents yg nak kuar TM & those coming in..by the way..TM is sending out 2 of us and will be receiving 2 from MAB & Sime Darby..
On 27/6/08 (a really last minute arrangement) i've to meet up with Dr Ikmal, Director of Yayasan Khazanah for an informal chat...he's also a nice guy..my future boss...i guess Allah did answer my Prayer...i was gifted with a nice boss and the best thing is that my new office will be in KLCC...which is 10 min from home...heheheheheheh..

30/06/08 was our handing over ceremony..it was held at Ritz Carlton..nice event..masa tu semua talents dapat souvenir dari receiving company..guess what'd i've received???a stack of books...Khazanah has published so many books of colors..so aku dapat la the whole set...WOW!!!! back to reading time...dah lama aku tak membaca buku2 ilmiah ni...sejak habis belajar ni buku yg aku selalu bukak pon alquran dan buku pasal Fardhu Ain dan ajaran Islam...hehehehe..cam tak percaya aku kena baca buku2 tu...masa baca the Orange book pon it takes me 2-3 days to complete...heheheheheh...lainla kalu novel tu...24 hours boleh stay up to finish it up...

Since aku lambat settle pasal placement aku, they've decided utk aku delay a bit aku punya report duty...bila depa tanya..aku jawab jer la mid July coz since ari tu kata tak jadi..aku takde la prepare hand over..so i need ample time utk hand over la...mid july should be just nice..

Semalam got a call from my mum...dia nak buat operation cataract mata dia on 23rd July...adusss lagi sekali...kalu aku report on 16th...takkan la aku nak mintak cuti lagi on 23rd nanti...haru2..so tadi aku dah appeal kat Khazanah & TM utk postponed pemergian aku to 1st August...sib baik gak khazanah pon belum habis finalizing my terms utk ke sana...so it's a win-win situation la ni...heheheh...

Pagi tadi aku dah selamat hand over kat my colleague and assistant aku...sedey plak rasanya...ni yg ada masa nak update blog aku ni...macam pelik plak bila free ni...dulu kojo cam tak cukup tanah...weekend pon kono kojo...2-3 ari ni aku rasa gile bosan...aku tak leh imagine org yg takde kerja tu camne...aku dah nak sampai tahap kutu gugur dari kepala ni...tapi takpe la...next week aku akan on leave pon...takde la rasa sangat...

Apapapon...doakan aku berjaya mengharungi this 2 years assignment..dan yg paling penting aku dapat menimba ilmu yg baru...merasa berkerja dlm environment yg baru dan di bawah boss yg baru...AMINNNNNNNN....

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Pulang Ke Rahmatullah...Aishah...

ni aku nak share citer kawan aku yg baru kehilangan putri bongsu dia yg baru berumur 4 bulan. COD adalah suffocation..Cots death...(according to my fren)

dekat2 kul 2pm (1/7/08) - Pia (anak sulong laili) call dia ckp "adik aishah sakit...dah keras tak gerak ni...mama balik la cepat...". laili could not get thru to her hubby coz mamat tu dlm meeting.so she decide nak balik naik teksi jer...tapi nasib baik bebudak opis tu tolong hantar...dia mintak tolong neighbour dia p tgk dulu sementara dia nak sampai tapi masa neighbour dia p tu aishah dah kaku...muka pon dah pucat...not knowing what to do, dia bawak turun aishah ke bawah (she's staying in apartment)..kebetulan budak misi gleneagles baru balik kerja...so dia bg tau misi tu aishah suffocate...budak2 tu try buat CPR but tak boleh resussated her...so they took her to the nearest clinic...doktor confirm aishah dah takde..masa tu Laili sampai klinik...according to her...she was screaming like a mad lady..yg dia nampak hanya baby dia terbaring kaku atas katil..terduduk dia bila doktor cakap baby dah takde...they later took her to the other clinic...i guess for 2nd opinion..but still they same result...she can't be save...then they took her to Ampang Putri for final confirmation...diorang tak buat post mortem cuma they check thoroughly kot2 ada tanda2 abuse atau strangulation...
Laili cakap aishah macam anak patung..smiling & she smells so nice..visitors cakap masa p menziarah tu..boleh bau wangi dr pintu lift lagi...that is 3 doors away..
according to laili, dia masih belum face to face ngan bibik dia lagi...to ask what really happen...according to Mak Laili, she did ask Pia.."masa pia balik tu pia masuk tgk adik..".."Tengok""Adik tgh buat pe?""Adik tgh tidur dlm buai...tapi dia tak gerak atau nangis pon.." despite of kakak2 & abang buat bising dekat dia...masa tu pukul 1pm..most probably masa tu aishah dah takde..laili cakap all her kids mmg tidur buai & she makes sure berbedung so that dia tak overturn..doktor suspect samada dia tak dibedung atau bedung tu tak kemas...

Aku tak tau la kalau aku kat tempat laili...sure macam org meroyan...dia cakap dia dah kering air mata...bila org menziarah dok citer pasal aishah..dia dah macam org dungu...lost her words...sampai petang semalam (more than 24hrs) dia tak makan apa..just take a lot of water jer..susu dia plak membuak2...lagi la sedih dia..stock susu dia pon banyak...aku cakap cuba bagi kat muhamad...kot la dia nak lagi..to be her...she need to be very strong...infact they are very strong...they manage everything sendiri...dari mandikan..kapan dan doakan di kubur...Laili & Lan buat sendiri...ustaz tu cakap this is the last time for them to belai and siapkan dia...

Aku pernah tgk arwah aishah sekali jer...hari dia lahir...dia comel sangat...like a doll..hidung terletak...gebu..pipi merah..sampai aku pernah pasang angan2 nak bermenantukan aishah..nampak gayanya tak kesampaian la angan2 aku tu...hehehehehehe...
apa2 pon aku doakan roh aishah dicusuri rahmat...aku cakap kat laili...insya allah aishah akan tunggu dia di pintu syurga...

kita yg melihat ni pun rasa berat...ini kan pulak dia...i told her, i'll alwiz be there for her..tak guna jadi kawan masa senang jer kan???

everything has the blessing in disguise...sesungguhnya Allah maha mengetahui apa yg terbaik utk semua makhlukNya.. mesti ada sebab kenapa aishah dipanggil kembali pada saat itu... we must alwiz tgk at the back of each event...tapi i know that it's hard to come to our senses pada masa tu...so it will take time for us to realise that sesungguhnya Allah Maha Besar dan Maha Mengetahui...kita kena redha walaupun sesusah mana kan???

i'm crying while writing this... how my heart sunk deep down beneath the 7 sea...terbayang2 laili...going back to the house...terbayang2 gelak aishah...terbayang2 aishah dok golek2 atas katil...if laili can recover cepat...i really respect her...mungkin dia nampak OK kat luar...deep down inside her..hanya Allah yg tahu...

My prayer for Laili & her family...Semoga Allah menguatkan hati dan iman kalian sekeluarga...
To Laili & Lan...bebanyak bersabar..banyak2 berisghtifar...ingat Allah..sesungguhnya Allah sentiasa bersama umatNya yg sabar...I know it's easier to said than done..berat mata memandang...berat lagi bahu memikul...You're the choosen one..ujian ini menandakan Allah masih ingat dan sayangkan kalian...org yg tak diuji bermakna Allah tidak ingat padanya...Just remember that me & Ariff will alwiz be there with you guys...if need us to be around..we're just a phone call away..


To my frenzs yg lain...
just want to share with you guys gak...jaga la anak masing2...kita tak mampu utk cuai..mmg la takdir dan sudah tersurat bila ajal kita kerana kita ni hanya makhluk ciptaan Nya ini hanya dipinjamkan ke dunia ini...tapi at least if anything happen kita mampu cakap at least I've tried my level best to protect my child..


-AL FATIHAH-