Zafran Dah boleh Jalan

1 year & 1 month...
At last Zafran boleh berdiri & walk independently..skang tgh sibuk berjalan...tapi bukan berjalan...berlari dalam erti kata sebenar...mana taknya...jalan takde break punye...silap haribulan langgar dinding...hehehehehe

skang tak larat nak kutip la plak...sibuk la nak ngekor...aku nak masuk dapur pon rimas...kekadang tu kalu lupa tutup safety gate..tetiba dia dah ada kat belakang aku..bahaya tul...dibuatnya aku tgh angkat periuk ker...aku ni dah la kuat melatah...

Bila dikenang balik cam kejap jer dah setahun...zafran pon dah boleh jalan...cam baru jer bawak balik dari hospital..kalu dulu he used to love to be cuddled & hugged, skang ni susah tul..kalu kita hug dia mesti sibuk nak p main..tu la aku selalu ckp kat org yg tak nak breast feed anak...rugi oooo..masa breast feed tu la boleh hug & cuddle baby..bila cam aku ni..dah tak leh dah..boleh la kejap...pastu dia suh lepas dia coz dia nak p main..skang ni nak isap susu pon taknak duk atas aku dah..nak isap susu sambil tgk TV..rugi tul la...kalu nak suh dia hug & kiss tu kena tunggu mood dia elok...nanti he'll come on his own..siap kiss yg sampai lencun muka tu...dia ada habit baru...kalu salam org (salam cium tgn), dia akan kiss aku balik after dia salam org...usually after dia salam teacher (masa nak balik) dia akan kiss aku..salam 5 cikgu means i'll get 5 kisses...heheheh...cikgu dia kata nak bg adil...

aku perasan zafran ni jenis manja...Nonie selalu cakap zafran ni ada character aku...manja & ngada-ngada...hehehehe...agaknya he's used to that during his time in my tummy..agaknya hari2 dok rasa & dengar ibu dia dok melese..Aku perasan zafran suka buat muka & pose cute yg membuatkan aku tak jadi nak marah dia...sometime he'll give his chicky look...he's so adorable...

Aku notice one thing..he's so possessive...kaki jeles..skang ni kalu org amik toys dia atau try to be close to me or his dad...sure dia ngamuk...kalu org amik toys dia...dia akan p rampas balik...cousins atau kawan2 kat sekolah takleh pegang barang dia...

Ari tu masa balik KB, Tok Mi presentkan dia 1 teddy bear...obses giler ngan teddy tu...org lain tak leh amik..not even babah & ibu..dia akan usung kehulu-kehilir teddy tu...cuma aku tak bagi dia bawak p sekolah coz takut dia gaduh ngan kawan2 plak berebut bendalah tu..

cuma yg paling menakutkan aku skang ni...dia dah start melalak bila tak dapat apa yg dia nak...aku takut dia jadi cam kids yg selama ni aku tgk melalak & golek2 kat kedai sbb tak dpt toys/food yg dia nak...zafran skang ni will only stop bile dpt apa yg dia nak...ie bila dia tak mo duduk dlm car seat dia...dia akan melalak cam kena dera sampai sedu sedan...sampai la aku angkat & riba dia...yg aku hangin tu...setitis air mata pon takde...

Apapapon...he's now a boy...but he'll forever be my baby...

The Secret to a Lasting Marriage: Embrace Imperfection

I really like this article...

When I was a little girl, my mom liked to make breakfast
food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in
particular when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work.

On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage,
and extremely burned toast in front of my dad. I remember waiting to
see if anyone noticed! Yet, all my dad did was reached for his toast,
smiled at my mom, and asked me how my day was at school.

I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember
watching him smear butter and jelly on that toast and eat every bite!
When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mom
apologize to my dad for burning the toast. And I'll never forget what
he said: "Baby, I love burned toast."

Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if
he really liked his toast burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said,
"Debbie, your mommy put in a hard day at work today and she's real
tired. And besides, a little burnt toast never hurt anyone!"

In bed that night, I thought about that scene at dinner...and the
kindness my daddy showed my mom. To this day, it's a cherished memory
from my childhood that I'll never forget. And it's one that came to
mind just recently when Jack and I sat down to eat dinner.

I had arrived home late...as usual...and decided we would have
breakfast food for dinner. Some things never change, I suppose!

To my amazement, I found the ingredients I needed, and quickly began
to cook eggs, turkey sausage, and buttered toast. Thinking I had
things under control, I glanced through the mail for the day. It was
only a few minutes later that I remembered that I had forgotten to
take the toast out of the oven!

Now, had it been any other day -- and had we had more than two pieces
of bread in the entire house -- I would have started all over. But it
had been one of those days and I had just used up the last two pieces
of bread. So burnt toast it was!

As I set the plate down in front of Jack, I waited for a comment about
the toast. But all I got was a "Thank you!" I watched as he ate bite
by bite, all the time waiting for some comment about the toast. But
instead, all Jack said was, "Babe, this is great. Thanks for cooking
tonight. I know you had a hard day."

As I took a bite of my charred toast that night, I thought about my
mom and dad...how burnt toast hadn't been a deal-breaker for them.
And I quietly thanked God for giving me a marriage where burnt toast
wasn't a deal-breaker either!

You know, life is full of imperfect things...and imperfect people. I'm
not the best housekeeper or cook. And you might be surprised to find
out that Jack isn't the perfect husband! He likes to play his music
too loud, he will always find a way to avoid yard work, and he watches
far too many sports. Believe it or not, watching "Golf Academy" is not
my idea of a great night at home!

But somehow in the past 37 years Jack and I have learned to accept the
imperfections in each other. Over time, we have stopped trying to make
each other in our own mold and have learned to celebrate our
differences.
You might say that we've learned to love each other for who we really
are!


For example, I like to take my time, I'm a perfectionist, and I'm
even-tempered. I tend to work too much and sleep too little. Jack, on
the other hand, is disciplined, studious, an early riser, and is a
marketer's dream consumer. I count pennies and Jack could care less!
Where he is strong, I am weak, and vice versa.

And while you might say that Jack and I are opposites, we're also very
much alike. I can look at him and tell you what he's thinking. I can
predict his actions before he finalizes his plans. On the other hand,
he knows whether I'm troubled or not the moment I enter a room.

We share the same goals. We love the same things. And we are still
best friends. We've traveled through many valleys and enjoyed many
mountaintops. And yet, at the same time, Jack and I must work every
minute of every day to make this thing called "marriage" work!

What I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each
other's faults - and choosing to celebrate each other's differences -
is the one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing,
and lasting marriage relationship.

And that's my prayer for you today. That you will learn to take the
good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your married life and lay them at
the feet of GOD. Because in the end, He's the only One who will be
able to give you a marriage where burnt toast isn't a deal-breaker!

Have a great day! May God bless your marriage.

ABSCESS aka BISUL?????

What an interesting topic to write about...muahahahahahahah
Mohamad Amir Zafran bin Mohd Ariff naik bisul for the 1st time of his life....
It all started like this...

Last week aku & Babah dia dah notice ada tiny dot kat bum2 dia..just cam kena gigit nyamuk jer...so aku takde la pikir apa...pastu aku perasan cam ada nanah...but the size still cute jer...2-3 hari pastu nanah cam dah hilang...aku ingat dah pecah la...so aku buat derk jer la...hoping that it will subside...

Ari Ahad masa kat KB badan dia panas...demam la tu...tapi yg herannya dia tak cam biasa...biasanya kalu demam mesti dia mengada-ngada...nak bertempek jer...tapi kali ni different...ngamuk jer...semua tak betul...tido takmo...hug takmo..tapi makan lalu jerk...tetiba Babah dia teringat..."Yang...entah2 bisul dia bengkak tak???" Bila Babah dia bukak diaper...nah nko...bengkak giler..merah sebelah bontot...

aku bawak dia p clinic kat KB...doktor tu bg la PCM + antibiotik...according to her ada 50% probability utk bisul tu surut..kalu tak surut dia akan masak & pecah..kalu dah masak kena la bawak p hospital utk buat minor surgery...she gave us 3 days...dia kata kalu after 3 days tak surut kena p spital...

so ari Selasa kami balik KL..but his abscess tak surut gak...so ari Rabu aku bawak dia p APSH..dah musim cuti sekolah ni...so doktor ramai yg cuti...termasuk la pead zafran & dr amin tai, the pead surgeon...so clinic Dr amin refer zafran to pead on call...which is Dr Christoper Lim...aku ngan Dr Lim ni kurang skit...coz dia cam kalut & cakap pon susah nak paham...but no choice la...bila jumpa Dr Lim, dia suh amik antibotik yg jap coz according to him yg oral dah tak jalan...masa tu bisul tu cam dah bentan..tak masak2 & butt zafran dah keras giler...so dia kata nak pecahkan pon takleh..the antibiotik was supposed to cairkan nanah tu so that boleh Dr amin boleh potong & buang...tensen giler aku masa tu...antibiotik tu kena amik 2 kali sehari...just imagine nak p hospital 2 kali sehari...

A day after day (Khamis)...aku bawak zafran for follow up & take the jap...Dr Lim cakap dah boleh potong...dia cakap nanti Dr Amin pecahkan skit jer & kuarkan darah...so dia foward p Dr Amin...which luckily ari tu dah masuk kerja...p jumpa Dr Amin...kat Day ward...masa tu kul 10.30am..tengok jer muka Dr Amin...zafran dah melalak...cam tau2 jer...ataupon dia cuak tgk dr amin pakai baju OT...dia cakap kul 12.30 nak operate zafran...OPERATE???pakai GA??? what???kecut perut aku...so dia suh zafran admit...aku ingat kan it's just a minor surgery & he just need to stay at the day ward..rupanya tidak...there go my work...aku dah la tengah berlambak kerja sebab dah byk ari cuti...but as usual...my boss is an understanding lady...to her when it comes to FAMILY..it will be the priority...

just imagine zafran only had his breakfast at 9.00am...& kena puasa sampai kul 12.30tgh..just imagine camne keadaan dia...ngamuk sakan la..lapar...masa aku bawak masuk p OT tu dia dah start ngamuk2..pujuk pon dah tak jalan...Nurse inform kata aku boleh masuk OT pujuk dia sampai bius tu take effect...pastu kena kuar...aku ingat boleh tengok...so aku terpaksa la tukar baju...pakai baju OT gak... lagi la zafran melalak..by kul 1 baru nurse suh aku bawak zafran masuk OT...dah 2 kali aku masuk OT tapi kali ke3 ni aku masuk berjalan..bukan cam dulu...kena tolak atas katil...once letak zafran atas katil tu...anasthetist letak mask kat dia...tak sampai 10 second dia dah tido...cam penat jer aku tukar baju...

tgh tunggu nurse panggil...sempat pose pastu sambung nangis balik...

Babah cakap ni Dr Ibu....
baju surgery 4 baby cam kain langsir...

That procedure tu kejap sangat...elok jer aku tukar baju, nurse masuk day ward amik katil utk letak zafran...cam tak caya...all the procedure tu took about 15 min...once he was pushed to the recovery room, nurse panggil aku masuk...aku masuk jer dengar sore dia dok melalak...la....dah sedar rumanya...Nurse suh aku comfort dia....hug dia...elok aku nak angkat...aku nampak darah meleleh kuar dari plaster...cuak aku...nurse pon kelam kabut jadinya...diorang cakap darah kuar coz zafran dok meronta2..i can imagine his pain...Dr amin datang...tukarkan gosh..walllaa...but still zafran dok melalak lagi...semua tak betul...it takes a while to comfort him...

Once dah masuk bilik, nurse cakap dah boleh bg susu...walaupon hati aku terdetik BOLEH KER???sebab setahu aku kena tunggu dia kentut atau sendawa dulu...kalu tak mesti muntah...tapi depa kata boleh...who am I to question them...so aku bg la susu..zafran yg mmg sedianya lapar...mmg minum tak henggat la...(minum dlm tangis..boleh jd tajuk lagu tu)..as suspected...baru 2/3 dia minum...buekkkkk...muntah lewahhh la....agaknya gas bius tu tendang...siap kentut lagi...masa tu abih cadar spital tu...nasib la..depa yg cakap boleh...lepas tu baru la dia boleh minum...dah abih 1/3 balance susu tu boleh sambung plak mkn porridge...mmg anak aku lapar giler la tu...bukan sikit dia makan...kalu satu serving tu org tua pon boleh kenyang...dia boleh mkn 3/4...giler kagum aku...pastu siap boleh senyum2 & sembang lagi...

1 hour after that dia dah boleh main dlm cot dia...siap dah mundar mandir berdiri dalam cot lg...lepas aku solat zuhur...aku bawak dia p playroom...kesian aku tgk dia dok main dlm cot tu...kalu kat umah boleh la dia melasak...kat dlm bilik nak lepas kat mana...dah la tak dpt single room...lagi la leceh...

playing kat play room 2 hours after operation...
anak aku ternyata lasak...tak tau sakit ker???

1/6/07, Dr Amin kata dah boleh balik...tapi kena buat dressing dulu...lepas pd tu kitorang kena buat dressing sendiri kat umah, 2 kali sehari...masa Dr cakap tu kitorang ingat OK la...coz masa kat recovery room tu aku tgk opening tu cam kecik jer...kalu korang boleh imagine...besar tutup minyak yuyi jer...

Slightly b4 1pm, nurse suh kami bawak zafran p treatment room...masa tu OK lagi...once dia bukak plaster zafran tu...aku still macho...pastu nurse nak kuarkan "peck" aka gosh yg dr bubuh dlm opening tu...bila nurse tu tarik kuar...aku mula seriau...apa taknya panjang giler gosh tu...once semua gosh kuar, aku tgk opening dia...gile dalam...about 1 ruas ibu jari...masa tu pucat aku...kalu toreh pisau pon mau tak berdarah tu...dan Babah dia yg sememangnya takut darah tu plak cakap..."I don't think I can do the dressing..Kita bawak dia p clinic jer la"Zafran masa tu melalak tak hengat la...tambah plak nurse dok flush ngan saline...pedih agaknya...Aku tak leh imagine betapa sakitnya dia masa tu...i'm trying to put myself in his shoe...tak sanggup mak...tapi seperti biasa anak aku yg macho ni cepat recover...once depa siap dressing & ganti plaster baru & hantar dia masuk bilik...dia dah start melasak balik...kekadang aku wonder...anak aku ni tau makna sakit ker tak....gambar bawah ni taken about 1 hour after that...

Presentation ari ni is on How to overcome the pain...by Mr Amir Zafran

since 1/6 tu ari jumaat, babah dia tinggal kitaorang & went for Friday Prayer...elok kul 2 zafran poopoo plak...aku dah gelabah...camne nak handle sesorang ni...mesti kena tukar plaster...sure meronta tak hengat la...call Babah...nasib baik babah dah on the way p spital...aku dok ingat kalu lambat aku nak suh one of the nurse jer tolong aku..

After dah cebok & nak tukar plaster, Aku & babah dia siap kagum lagi...the opening tu boleh heal so fast...dah takde le sedalam masa dressing tadi...mmg sepatutnya camtu atau sebab zafran hari2 makan jeli gamat???since dah tak dalam sangat we decided boleh la buat dressing sendiri...

Funny thing is that...01/06/07 ni adalah hari pertama Babah dia report duty kat SAPURA...pagi tu masa babah nak pergi..aku susah hati sungguh...dok pikir camne nak bawak dia balik...camne nak buat discharge procedure...sapa nak tgk zafran...coz Tok Wan & Aki will only sampai KL in the afternoon... Nasib baik la Boss baru Babah very understanding...after reported for duty & babah citer kat dia pasal zafran kat spital dia bg off kat babah...

Aku nak meluahkan rasa tak puah hati aku kat HMO company aku ni...that is PMCARE...kerja cam gampang...geram tul aku...Dr Amin release kul 11, kul 12 Account Dept hantar request for discharge advice to PMCare...Kul 4 baru dia kuarkan discharge advise tu...tu pon after aku call opis mate aku yg handle Medical..tak cukup ngan tu, aku call PMcare, aku ngamuk la...alasan depa sbb ari jumaat...so what???laki aku pon p solat gak...kul 2 dah sampai spital balik...don't tell me their staff p wirid & gulung sejadah kat masjid...mmg hangin tul la...

so sampai ari ni (4/6) kami still la dok buat dressing kat luka tu...pg tadi aku risau gak masa hantar dia p nursery...takut cikgu2 tu takleh handle the luka...tapi tgh ari tadi aku p nursery, one of the teacher said dia boleh buat after tgk cara aku buat pg tadi masa tukar diaper dia...alhamdullillah ada teacher yg experience skit...cuma tadi aku mintak depa ensure his butt & bird dicuci bersih everytime tukar diaper...takut infection plak...

Semalam bawak dia p check up kat panel clinic, Dr Aminah cakap it's healing nicely...bersih & tunggu masa utk tertutup jer...Hopefully dia recover ASAP...insya Allah...