Abang nak bam atas adik..

Semalam tetiba Babah menjerit marah Abang...

Aku yg tengah kuarkan susu adik utk thaw bg bekalan dia hari ni terkejut.. tetiba Abang datang dgn penuh syahdu mengadu kat aku...

"Babah marah..."
"Kenapa Babah marah?"
"Afan nak tido atas adik.." Afan adalah panggilan Zafran utk dirinya..
"Mana boleh.. Zafran dah besar, Adik kecik lagi.."
"Adik dah besar" when he's comparing to his sister yg 2 bulan sudah yg kecik amat...

"Zafran jgn masuk bilik.. duduk luar" tetiba Babah dia kuar.. sambung marah lagi..
tetiba bila terpandang vitagen didalam peti, terus hilang syahdunya...
"Ibu, Afan nak vitagen"
"Tak boleh.." belum sempat aku jawab Babah dia dah nyampuk... so lagi sekalilah syahdunya...

Dia pun dgn syahdunya p la tgk KungFu Panda kat TV luar...
Masa aku masuk bilik, aku tanya la Babah dia..apa jadi... rupa2nya dia sudah hempap adik dia kat dada.. aku tau he has no bad intention...he just wanna sleep on his sister as he always did on our lap.. kelmarin pun dia pernah cakap kat aku yg dia nak tido atas adik, tapi aku cakap tak boleh sbb adik still kecik & pujuk dia to sleep on my lap, dia OK la.. dia still tak paham concept adik is still a baby & fragile..

Bukan setakat tu, dia selalu la dok paksa adik dia to look at him..kekadang you'll find it funny especially when he asked Zahra to look at him tapi si Adik tak paham...nanti mula la dia paksa muka adik tu... kekadang aku risau bila dia kat umah ngan maid & adik jer...takut masa maid aku sibuk di belakang, dia kacau adik... tapi one thing for sure, kalu adik berbunyi skit, dia akan berlari ke belakang to notify aku or my maid yg adik nangis... tang tu boleh di harap la...

Aku berharap sangat la si Zafran ni bila besar nanti boleh look after his sister bila kami dah tiada nanti...

What killed SAP India CEO???

I got this in one of my emails.. it really spooks me... especially now with Zahra... I'll wake up every 2 hours...huhuhu...am i getting enuf sleep????

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SAP India CEO Ranjan Das Dies After Gym Workout

Ranjan Das, CEO and MD of SAP Indian subcontinent
died after a massive cardiac arrest in Mumbai on Wednesday.
One of the youngest CEOs, he was 42

What killed Ranjan Das and Lessons for Corporate India ?

A month ago, many of us heard about the sad demise of Ranjan Das from Bandra, Mumbai. Ranjan, just 42 years of age, was the CEO of SAP-Indian Subcontinent, the youngest CEO of an MNC in India. He was very active in sports, was a fitness freak and a marathon runner. It was common to see him run on Bandra's Carter Road. Just after Diwali, on 21st Oct, he returned home from his gym after a workout, collapsed with a massive heart attack and died. He is survived by his wife and two very young kids.

It was certainly a wake-up call for corporate India. However, it was even more disastrous for runners amongst us. Since Ranjan was an avid marathoner ( in Feb 09, he ran Chennai Marathon at the same time some of us were running Pondicherry Marathon 180 km away ), the question came as to why an exceptionally active, athletic person succumb to heart attack at 42 years of age.

Was it the stress?

A couple of you called me asking about the reasons. While Ranjan had mentioned that he faced a lot of stress, that is a common element in most of our lives. We used to think that by being fit, one can conquer the bad effects of stress. So I doubted if the cause was stress.

The Real Reason

However, everyone missed out a small line in the reports that Ranjan used to make do with 4-5 hours of sleep. This is an earlier interview of Ranjan on NDTV in the program 'Boss' Day Out':

Here he himself admits that he would love to get more sleep ( and that he was not proud of his ability to manage without sleep, contrary to what others extolled ).

The Evidence

Last week, I was working with a well-known cardiologist on the subject of ‘Heart Disease caused by Lack of Sleep’. While I cannot share the video nor the slides because of confidentiality reasons, I have distilled the key points below in the hope it will save some of our lives.

Some excerpts:

· Short sleep duration ( <5>

· Young people ( 25-49 years of age ) are twice as likely to get high BP if they sleep less. Paper published in 2006.

· Individuals who slept less than 5 hours a night had a 3-fold increased risk of heart attacks. Paper published in 1999.

· Complete and partial lack of sleep increased the blood concentrations of High sensitivity C-Reactive Protein (hs-cRP), the strongest predictor of heart attacks. Even after getting adequate sleep later, the levels stayed high!!

· Just one night of sleep loss increases very toxic substances in body such as Interleukin-6 (IL-6), Tumour Necrosis Factor-Alpha (TNF-alpha) and C-reactive protein (cRP). They increase risks of many medical conditions, including cancer, arthritis and heart disease. Paper published in 2004.

· Sleeping for <=5 hours per night leads to 39% increase in heart disease. Sleeping for <=6 hours per night leads to 18% increase in heart disease. Paper published in 2006.

Ideal Sleep

For lack of space, I cannot explain here the ideal sleep architecture. But in brief, sleep is composed of two stages: REM ( Rapid Eye Movement ) and non-REM. The former helps in mental consolidation while the latter helps in physical repair and rebuilding. During the night, you alternate between REM and non-REM stages 4-5 times.

The earlier part of sleep is mostly non-REM. During that period, your pituitary gland releases growth hormones that repair your body. The latter part of sleep is more and more REM type.

For you to be mentally alert during the day, the latter part of sleep is more important. No wonder when you wake up with an alarm clock after 5-6 hours of sleep, you are mentally irritable throughout the day (lack of REM sleep). And if you have slept for less than 5 hours, your body is in a complete physical mess ( lack of non-REM sleep ), you are tired throughout the day, moving like a zombie and your immunity is way down ( I’ve been there, done that ).

Finally, as long-distance runners, you need an hour of extra sleep to repair the running related damage.

If you want to know if you are getting adequate sleep, take Epworth Sleepiness Test below.

Interpretation: Score of 0-9 is considered normal while 10 and above abnormal. Many a times, I have clocked 21 out the maximum possible 24, the only saving grace being the last situation, since I don’t like to drive ( maybe, I should ask my driver to answer that line ).

In conclusion:

Barring stress control, Ranjan Das did everything right: eating proper food, exercising ( marathoning! ), maintaining proper weight. But he missed getting proper and adequate sleep, minimum 7 hours. In my opinion, that killed him.
If you are not getting enough sleep ( 7 hours ), you are playing with fire, even if you have low stress.

I always took pride in my ability to work 50 hours at a stretch whenever the situation warranted. But I was so spooked after seeing the scientific evidence last week that since Saturday night, I ensure I do not even set the alarm clock under 7 hours. Now, that is a nice excuse to get some more sleep.

Unfortunately, Ranjan Das is not alone when it comes to missing sleep. Many of us are doing exactly the same, perhaps out of ignorance. Please forward this mail/article to as many of your colleagues/friends as possible, especially those who might be short-changing their sleep. If we can save even one young life because of this email, I would be the happiest person on earth

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so??? are you getting enuf sleep?????

Nak Makan..

"Zafran nak makan kek color tu..." Tu la statement anak teruna ku bila dia tgk bibik ku buang kek lapis lebih raya ari tu...hahahaha, berapa bulan daaa kek tu dlm peti... buat semak jer...

So nak tak nak, aku kena la buat kek lapis masam manis tu raya haji ni... nak buat camne... anak punya pasal..

Now aku faham perasan mek aku bila aku cakap nak makan itu & ini.. aku ni cucu mek.. besar ngan mek.. masa awal2 aku lahir, mmg mek yg bela aku sebab mami kat KL sorang2.. atas tuntutan kerja.. lepas melahirkan aku baru dia dapat transfer balik KB.. but still aku jadi cucu belaan mek sbb mami kerja shift.. so semua makan pakai aku, mek yg jaga.. dulu masa aku kat asrama, everytime aku cuti sekolah, mesti dia sibuk tanya aku nanti balik nak makan apa... tak miss punya adalah ayam percik dia...best maut punye... bukan setakat hingga menjilat jari..menjilat tapak tangan pun ada gak...

Kelmarin masa adik aku datang umah, dia cakap mek sakit... aduihhhh.. camne ni...dah la hubby dah cakap raya haji ni nak balik setiawan.. masa tu aku dah terfikir nak pujuk dia.. tapi teringat plak hubby kena p outstation right after raya tu... habis??? adik cakap petang tu uncle aku yg doktor tu nak p tgk mek.. ikut adik aku, mek tak leh bangun.. dia ni mmg dah mula nyanyuk & ostreoporosis.. asalnya dia sakit pinggan, tapi pastu terus tak leh bangun.. tambah plak sesak nafas.. ada plak sedara yg perasan dia ada degree in medicine, pie buat assumption yg mek ada sakit jantung...cishhhh...buat aku susah hati jerk...

malam tu, aku telefon mami.. mami cakap uncle comfirm mek takde jantung... lega aku.. ada yg nak kena hampuk ngan aku ni sbb buat aku susah hati.. yg bestnya, mami citer, pagi sebelum tu nak bangun minum air pun cakap sakit... nak suh angkat tangan nak tukar baju pun beradoi.. tapi right after uncle urut2 sikit belakang dia, cakap dia sakit urat jer, terus boleh bangun berjalan.. nak golak pun ada.. so aku buat conclusion... mek aku ni dah cronic..agaknya dia sunyi.. psychologically bila ada yg datang jenguk dia, automatically dia sihat..

aku memang kagum ngan mami.. yer la, sebagai anak, this is the time dia nak balas jasa jaga org tua tu.. dalam hari2 gaduh ngan mek, dia still sabar jaga mek.. mek ni mmg dari muda mmg garang skit and very independent, so almost everyday la mami & mek gaduh sebab mek suka nak buat semua benda sendiri.. kalu aku kat tempat mami, belum tentu aku akan sesabar tu.. maklumla aku ni jenis kurang sabar.. dah la mek suke repeat benda 4-5 kali.. maklumla dia dah nyanyuk.. aku selalu pujuk mami suh sabar bila dia tepon aku cakap dia stress jaga mek... tapi ye la, senang cakap la kan...kita bukan kat tempat dia...

aku tak tau samada aku boleh menjaga mami bila dia tua cam dia jaga mek.. and adakah anak2 aku akan sabar jaga aku bila aku dah tua esok2.. ke anak2 aku akan hantar kami berdua p umah org tua2.. ntah la... yang pasti aku sentiasa memohon kepada Allah agar anak2 kami sentiasa menuruti segala suruhan-Nya.. dan meninggalkan segala larangan-Nya.. amin....

Kepala ku Berdengung...

Arggghhhhhh... minggu ni saje 2 kali dah Zahra tak mo tido malam... semalam sampai kul 2 pagi dia takmo tido... asyik gayut jer... biasanya bila dah kenyang, dia akan fall asleep tapi semalam macam2 aku buat..sampai babah dia dah hampir hilang sabar... ye la..puas ulik tapi takmo tido... bila pujuk dia tido, dia ngamuk... huishhhh...

hasil dari itu... skang ni kepala aku tgh berdengung tahap gaban.. nak MC, baru hari rabu ari tu MC...tu pun kes yg sama... aku ni bila kurang tido, mula la darah aku naik...huhuhuhu..

apa nak buat ni?????

Andai Itu Takdirnya..

It's been quite sometime aku tak baca novel... setahun on assignment, aku sibuk giler...cehhh... cam la aku sorang sibuk... hahahahahaha.. ye la balik kerja dah penat... nak layan anak lagi ... hehehehe...ALASAN!!!!

Semalam aku start membaca balik.. Kak Nab, my close fren highly recommend buku ni.. dia siap pesan yg dia nak tahu aku nangis tak baca buku ni...

Mula2 baca cam takde benda sangat.. i thot this is going to be another teenage love story since it starts with their life as students in UK.. but when the ball started to roll, there's no stop to it... agak cliche bila Aleya (watak utama) ditimpa malang satu demi satu.. bermula dari mereka kena tangkap basah, dia dilayan dgn teruk dgn Aizril hinggalah pompuan gatai si Lin tu cuba trap Aizril dgn tuduhan berkhalwat.. mmg sedih... tapi mmg kita ni suke citer2 camni... kita ni suke melayan perasaan kita...

most of my friend yg baca novel ni mesti nangis...so far hanya sorang yg tak menitiskan airmatanya utk novel ni..

Aku bagi 4 bintang utk buku ni yg mampu buat aku menangis... bukan apa, aku terbayangkan kalu aku kat tempat dia, bertarung dgn maut, siapa yg akan menjaga anak2ku... terbayangkan bagaimana aku menyanyangi suamiku dan jika suamiku menyakitiku... hushhhh

aku masih berhutang ngan kawan2ku... novelku sendiri masih separuh jalan.. need to get back to it...dulu last buat sebelum p maternity...ni bila dah balik opis, masa free sibuk ngan mengepam susu plak...so bila nak buat ni??? kat umah, aku cuba avoid spending too much time on my lappy, kesian hubby & anak2.. tu masa mereka...tak baik aku curi masa mereka... insya allah, targetku nak siapkan novel tu by my next birthday...

Hantaran kawen

Dah lama benar rasanya aku cuti dari menbuat gubahan hantaran untuk orang ni.. sejak ada zafran ni aku malas benar nak buat kerja2 seni ni.. jahit manik pun buat untuk baju sendiri jerk.. nak amik upah cam dulu cam dah tak daya... apa taknya...kena gaduh ngan zafran setiap kali nak buat kerja2 tu.. dia pun sibuk nak buat gak...

Asalnya MIL yg sanggup buat gubahan hantaran utk sepupu cousin yang kawen last weekend tu.. tapi end up, dia outsource kat aku.. mula2 mintak advice, tapi last2 aku yg buat.. hehehehehe... Mama just buat corsage tu jer...tu pun dia just assemble bunga2 yg dah siap.. walaupun dah lama bercuti dari membuat gubahan, my skill nampaknya lom hilang.. hahahaha.. lawa lagi la.. perasan la tuh!!! kalu aku tak puji diri sendiri sapa lagi kan??

Ni la gambar2 hantaran yg telah ku gubah itu...

ni cincin yang diiringi oleh 5 bekas bunga rampai

ferrero rocher yg digubah bulat menjadi hand bouquet

parfum... with very minimal effort

Mas kawin yg diselitkan dalam album..

Handbag yg juga tak byk effort diperlukan..

Sirih.. i really believe the simpler the better...

Gubahan sejadah yg dilipat kemas dan diikat dgn reben organza bersama rehal & al-quran

jam tangan yg sungguh cute... also effortless..

blueberry cheese tart yg disusun kemas dalam bekas yg diikat dgn reben besar

Aku skang tgh sibuk dok paksa my sister to get engage.. bukan apa, dah lama benar aku tak buat kenduri ni...sronot plak... hahahahaha

Gambar Freezer ku..

in my earlier posting, i've promised to post the photo of my freezer yg telah dipenuhi dengan EBM..

masa gambar ni diambil, ada 76 bekas dlm freezerku.. skang ni everyday ada cycle of 78 bekas... tolak 5 yg Zahra minum everyday & campur balik 6 bekas yg berjaya aku express everyday..

skang hubby dah risau mana nak letak lagi lepas ni.. ada can tak aku nak dapat freezer gabak yg aku idamkan tu??? heheheheh...

BACK IN THE OFFICE

At last, tiba lah harinya aku kembali ke office after the long break... malasnya tuhan sahaja yg tahu.. ye la dah 3 bulan aku tak kerja..3 minggu before delivery, aku amik home rest due to high risk of H1N1.. pastu maternity leaves 60 hari.. pastu sambung lagi seminggu sbb cousin hubby kawen..

bangun pagi tadi cam tak caya nak kena pie office... nak kena kemas hand bag..kemas beg "susu".. hish... hand bag ku sampai berhabuk la... yer la..dok umah jer..kuar2 pun bawak purse jer..sah2 aku ni jenis org yg tak lady like, yg sibuk nak usung handbag kehulu-kehilir.. yg paling kelakar, aksesori aku cam bracelet aku semuanya berhabuk..hehehehehe..

tapi yang paling aku banggakan, aku berjaya buat stock susu sebanyak 76 bekas... hehehehehe... bangga sampai kembang hidung.. target aku 50 bekas.. tapi akhirnya aku dapat gak 76 tu...nanti aku postkan gambar freezer aku tu..yg pasti aku kena susun semua lauk pauk aku yg dlm freezer tu elok2..nak make sure enuf space for the EBM..

Pagi tadi aku report duty kat boss baru ku yg coincidently bersalin on the same day as me.. tadi masa sembang2, dia tanya aku pasal menyusu anak, bila aku cakap aku full BF, dia siap kagum lagi, bila aku cakap aku ada stok 76 bekas, lagi buntang mata dia...dia siap heran camne aku bleh ada stok sebanyak tu... the only answer to that is DETERMINATION and NIAT... bila kita niat nak yg terbaik utk anak kita...sure it will be the best motivation for you...

Aku dah train Zahra on EBM dari dalam pantang lagi..masa aku dok berurut tu..masa tu OK jer... tapi start last week dia mula buat perangai..agaknya dia dah besar..dah pandai nak bezakan mana yg best dan mana yg tak.. masa p kenduri kawen last week tu, dia melalak2 tak mo minum dari botol...stress nya aku...salah aku gak ler.. tak biasakan dia... ye la, aku ingat dah OK la.. sbb sebelum ni OK jer.. semalam lagi tragis.. dia siap merajuk takmo minum susu..siap nangis yg tersedu2 tu...aku mmg la kesian giler tgk dia nangis camtu, tapi nak buat camne.. bila pujuk dia Ok la kejap, pastu bila suh minum balik tu, nangis balik...

baru kejap tadi telefon maid aku, dia kata Zahra still dok merajuk bila suh minum susu, tapi better than yesterday... kalu yesterday, 2 jam baru habis 70ml, hari ni sekejap jer dah boleh habis.. hai la... dah besar la anak aku tu..

Dah 3 bulan kat umah ngan anak2, ari ni aku rasa sunyi sangat..walaupun keliling aku ni penuh ngan manusia.. takde suara zafran yg dok menjerit2 mintak itu & ini.. takde suara zahra menangis nak minum susu.. baru 4 jam, aku dah miss depa... huhuhuhuhu..