Eidul Adha 1428

Dah lama benar aku tak ada kesempatan nak letak posting kat sini..
towards end of the year ni macam-macam project in the pipeline. December 2007 adalah bulan yang paling penat, paling happening, paling sedih dan byk "paling" lagi la...

It started with Project Data Housekeeping...sampai hari ni tak habis-habis...nasib baik skang dah ada assistant to do the dirty job of tracking & coordination...now she's not everybody favorite dah...semua org bengkek...ye la...sapa suka diikuti cam polis kan??but she's paid to do so..nak buat camne...hari tu minah tu dah siap leleh sbb tensen..kesian gak aku kat dia...dah la baru start keje..biasa la tu kan...dgn budak baru berani la cakap macam-macam..coz depa pon tau..kalu cakap kat aku pon tak guna..kalu ngan aku lagi teruk...mulut mesti lagi bising...pot pet pot pet marah depa...sepatutnya depa bersyukur sbb my assistant yg buat coordination... bukannya aku...muahahahahaha (gelak evil)...

12-14 December aku p Trengganu for team building retreat...tinggal my beloved baby lagi sekali...kali ni kesian betul aku ngan Zafran.. A week before that Babah dia yg p out station ke Johor..sib baik dia tak terperangkap dlm banjir kat Johor. Just nice ari dia balik tu, air bah naik kat Johor.. Terharu aku kat hubby aku ni..since dia keje ngan Sapura ni dia byk p visit site..so selalu la out station. On the way balik dari JB hari tu, dia purposely masuk Muar semata-mata nak belikan aku pau Maharani depan sekolah Sains Muar...favorite aku tu....thinking of it pon buleh buat aku leleh... tapi sayang Pak Cik yg jual pau tu takde hari tu...tak tau la pakcik dah tak meniaga atau sbb musim hujan dia tak niaga..whatever it is...mmg aku terharu ngan effort laki ku...

back to story aku p out station kat trengganu, it started bad. Dah la kena p naik bas...pagi aku nak bertolak tu, Zafran demam & muntah. A day before that dah bawak p clinic tapi doktor ckp demam biasa..aku p pon dgn hati yg tak sedap...nak tak sedap hati lagi lepas hantar aku naik bas, hubby bawak Zafran p specialist plak..doktor bagi dia sampai end of the week..kalu fever dia tak kebah, kena buat blood test...aku yg dlm bas masa tu rasa cam nak turun tahan bas balik KL jer..tapi nak buat camne..my hubby cuba tenangkan aku...dia kata tunggu sampai malam..masa tu aku pikir kalu esok tak ok gak aku nak balik...tak kira camne.. to make things worst..bas yg aku naik kena detour sbb air dah naik lintas hi-way ke kuantan..bad sign??? It takes us 10 long hours to reach the resort tempat retreat tu..nak patah pinggang aku ni...dah la pinggang aku ni mmg dah ada masalah..kat resort tu plak takde 3G..lagi la aku susah hati...aku tak leh tengok anak aku ni...nasib baik ada phone coverage..at least i can talk to him.. oh ya...nanti aku citer pasal achievement Zafran yg latest dlm posting akan datang...insya allah..
esoknya his fever dah OK skit..baru la aku boleh ikuti program ngan tenang.. Final day tu kami redah gak p pasar payang & losong despite of hujan sepanjang hari utk beli ole-ole skit.. Nasib baik aku dah booking flight ticket hari last tu jugak sbb aku tak sanggup nk tunggu hari sabtu baru nak berangkat balik ngan bas..so malam tu aku dah boleh tido hug my baby..malam tu dia tak tido dalam cot pun...coz i miss him so much.. sunday masa bawak dia p pool party cousin dia kat Pantai Panorama, aku perasan badan zafran cam ada rashes...takkan la kena rosealla lagi...oh ya..after raya puasa hari tu zafran kena rosealla aka minor campak which is part of viral fever..that's according to Dr Ong (pead specialist kat ampang Point). aku tunggu monday terus bawak dia p jumpa Dr Nasir..at the same time zafran berak-berak & tak lalu makan..Doktor cakap dia kena Viral Fever. Sbb tu dia naik rashes & berak-berak.. Alhamdullillah by raya Haji hari tu dia dah 100% recovered.

Nak tambah tensen plak, sepatutnya aku balik sambut raya haji kat kampung, but due to tanah runtuh dan mendap dan cuti hubby kena freeze, kami sambut hari raya kat KL jer la..tak berani nak gamble...sedara2 yg balik semua ckp depa experience long hours of journey...masa hari raya tu sedih la coz dah janji ngan mami nak balik..tapi bila ngenangkan kalu travel long hours ngan Zafran, aku rasa tu la hikmah disebaliknya..sepatutnya my sister yg kat seremban & mami akan balik ke KL ngan aku, tapi terpaksalah hari selasa tu ambik tiket air asia for them. nasib baik ada lagi..

Sabtu malam they flew in from Kota Bharu..sampai dah kul 12.30 am. sampai2 umah semua org terus terbongkang. The next day tu masa breakfast, sekali lagi IT IS A BAD DECEMBER for me..Etty (my sister) cerita what had happened during Hari Raya. The story really "made" my day. Rupanya a Sabtu pagi tu Mami & my uncle gaduh..aku bukan nak buke pekong didada... tapi aku nak meluahkan rasa hati aku..It all started when Mami tanya Pak Long kenapa p tebas pokok Keladi dia..(Mami has 2 giant keladi kat depan umah)..suddenly angis monsoon uncle aku meletus..meleret2 jadi nya..sampai jadi incident ungkit-mengungkit..knowing mami, aku tahu mami akan banyak senyap..tapi aksi dingin mami tu ibarat curah minyak ke api..uncle aku geram sampai nak lempang my mum..bila mami jawab dia kata mami "derhaka"...aku pon tak tahu mana la uncle aku ni belajar agama...mazhab mana dia ikut..mana ada adik marah kakak, kakak yg derhaka..setahu aku yg tak berapa pandai agama ni la...samada anak lawan parents atau adik lawan kakak/abang, tu baru dikatakan derhaka..entahla...aku takut uncle aku ni terpengaruh ngan ilmu ajaran sesat yg skang ni dok sibuk target golongan korporat yg nak pandai agama in a blink ni..yg buat aku betul2 hangin ni...nama aku plak dikaitkan..kononnya aku tak pedulikan my grandma plak..aku pon tak paham la apa yg dia maksudkan aku tak pedulikan tu..setahu aku aku tak pernah abaikan dia..ye la...the distance tu another thing la...tapi every time aku balik mesti la aku attend to her..nak kata aku tak bagi duit kat nenek aku...dia bukannya nak pakai duit tu p beli barang...so aku bagi la duit kat mami jer...duit tu la yg mami buat belanja beli barang dapur pun...bagi makan kat nenek gak...so aku tak paham..ke dia ingat kalu macam dia yg dok bagi duit bulan2 kat nenek aku yg dah pelupa tu sebagai "PEDULI" sangat...bukannya org tua tu boleh pakai pon..nak mujur dia pon tak ingat kat mana dia simpan duit tu..Kekadang aku tak paham uncle2 aku ni..depa ni ingat duit can buy any thing..aku malas nak layan..kang kalu aku cakap lebih2 kan cakap plak sejak aku dah kerja..gaji pon dah ok..nak tunjuk pandai ngan depa plak..aku pernah dapat remark tu dulu,...so baik la aku buat bodoh jer..sebenarnya aku tensen yg amat skang ni..sakit hati bila org mempersoalkan keikhlasan aku..aku rasa uncle2 aku ni dah terlalu duniawi..lupa akan mati..lupa akan dosa dan pahala...tapi aku tak mampu nak cakap apa2. aku takut it will make things worst..kekadang aku rasa nak jer hantar ustaz sorang pergi preach kat depa ni..kalu ada sesapa yg baca posting luahan rasa aku ni, bagi la idea kat aku apa nak buat...org2 cam uncle aku ni tak guna kalu kita cakap apa2...dia rasa dia jer yg betul..ntahla..

ok lah...cukup la korang baca luahan hati aku yg bercelaru cam benang tersimpul ni..

Aku Penat...

Banyak betul yg terjadi dari Hari Raya sampai la hari ni...
Aku rasa aku penat sangat....stress...tense...dan yang sewaktu dengannya...
Kengkawan dok asyik tanya bila la nak post gambar raya...aku pon tak tau bile...to tell the truth..gambar raya tahun ni cam tak complete sangat...ingat nak suh my BIL tangkap gambar kami pakai baju raya...he's a pro photographer..masa ari raya ari tu tak sempat...masa kalut2 tu...zafran dah buat onar..dia poopoo sampai bocor...tak sempat la tangkap gambar pakai baju raya..

Dugaan kat aku hujung tahun ni banyak betul...tak cukup ngan stress kerja..tambah plak perkhabaran yg opis lakiku kena shift tu Wangsa Maju...masalah la plak..takkan nak suh laki aku p hantar aku & zafran kat menara TM pastu nak patah balik ke wangsa maju...masak tu minyak hari2...nak tambah lg satu kereta lg la costly...nak hantar zafran kat taska area wangsa maju tu...mau paling cokia RM250...tambah almost everyday aku & hubby balik lmbt which will result to OT kena bayar kat taska...mau cecah rm450 sebulan...tak ke masak tu...dari aku bayar RM450 kat taska, baik la aku amik bibik...save RM50..umah & kain baju ada org nak handle...

when it comes to isu bibik ni...aku & hubby a bit skeptical...bukan apa...banyak sangat masalah yg aku dengar...aku mintak tolong care taker weekend house uncle hubby utk carikan sedara mara dia kat indon yg nak kerja kat malaysia..kebetulan plak ada sorang classmate bini dia tgh cari keje...dulu dia kerja jaga cina tua...dia kata tak tahan sbb tu tak nak sambung contract... hopefully dgn aku kali ni dia tahan la...aku doa banyak2 minah ni jenis OK & org yg solat... sekurang2nya solat kan tiang agama...so aku really pray that dia takde la niat serong kat aku & family...Insya Allah she'll be coming on 25/12...

Dah 2 ari Zafran tak p Taska...Hari isnin petang dia start muntah2...tak boleh makan/minum apa2...everytime masuk benda dalam mulut mesti muntah...semalam pagi start watery stool..pagi semalam aku rush to Klinik Dr Ong (Pead specialist) kat Ampang Point..According to him, Zafran kena diarrhea..According to him diarrhea can be coz by 2 things iaitu food and air borne virus...aku baru tau yg diarrhea tu boleh transmit thru air...mula2 aku ingat sbb zafran suka sgt ngutip...pastu tgh hari td, kawan aku cakap anak dia yg duduk sebilik ngan zafran kat taska pon start vomiting & watery stool gak...90% aku rasa mmg Zafran dapat kat Taska la tu..
Doktor bagi ubat tahan muntah dan ubat colic...ari ni dia dok kat umah ngan tok wan..tadi aku call umah, mama cakap so far dia takde la muntah dah...cuma stoll dia still cair skit lagi...susah hati betul la...selagi anak tak besar ni hati selalu jer resah...dah besar nanti lain la plak masalah dia...entah la...begitu hebat cabaran menjadi parent nowadays...

SELAMAT TINGGAL RAMADHAN AL MUBARAK

Lama betul aku tak menulis kat sini...life hectic giler...kerja cam tak cukup2 masa...Skang ni kalu time office jgn harap nak menular...bukan nak cakap aku rajin...tapi masa yg ada ngam2 utk completekan task aku...kalu menular kena la balik lambat...which aku tak favor...aku rasa cukuplan masa aku kat office from 8.30 to 5.30 tu...lepas pada tu aku bukan lagi staff company aku...tapi aku seorang isteri & ibu kpd anak aku..after 5.30 I belongs to my family...

Pejam celik Ramadahan hanya tinggal 2 hari lagi...sedihnya...tahun ni cukup skit amalan aku sepanjang ramadhan ni...I really pray that aku masih boleh berjumpa dengan Ramadhan yg lain lagi...tahun ni hanya sempat buat yg wajib jer...mengaji & tarawikh entah kemana...nak salahkan anak 100% tak boleh gak...mmg la zafran tengah handfull tapi bak kata pepatah hendak seribu daya kan???Apa la aku ni...

Tahun ni turn sambut raya di KL...bosan betul la...persiapan nak sambut tu tak rasa sangat...kalu kat kg mesti hari sebelum raya tu sibuk ngan adik2 buat persiapan..nak masak for Pagi raya...kat KL ni tak de semangat langsung...rumah hubby dah tolong kemas (which last not even a day...:) sbb zafran dah punggah balik)..masak pon tahun ni aku malas coz pepagi raya nak p umah Arwah Nenek hubby kat Kg pandan...everybody kumpul kat sana...nasib baik la lepas zohor hari raya pertama tu kami akan berangkat balik ke KB...I can't imagine sambut raya the whole week kat sini...nak p mana???org semua balik kampung...

Aku nak ambil kesempatan ni untuk ucapkan selamat hari raya, maaf zahir batin, andaikata ada kata yg mengguris perkataan, andaikata ada laku yg menjelikkan mata, ampun dan maaf aku pohon dari kalian. Halalkan makan dan minum ku sepanjang perkenalan kita semua...

Outstation...Tragedi 18 Julai 2007

Aku telah dihantar untuk mengajar sistem Work Order Tracking yang baru implemented kat Division aku. So 16-18 July 2007, I was assigned to Kuching & Kota Kinabalu...Zafran duduk ngan Tok Wan & Aki sepanjang tempoh ni..

16/07/07, 10:05am, I took a flight to Kuching. Sampai Kuching dalam kul 12.30. Terus p ofis Kuching utk settle a few things..maklumla on that particular day sepatutnya aku transmit data to my System people. Nak buat kat KLIA, depa bar pula bila aku nak access to my company's network..Selasai transmit data, i was sent to Crowne Plaza to check in..baru jer letak bag dah start terima call bertalu2 coz ada issue ngan data yg supposed to be uploaded too...tensen tul...dah la penat travel tak hilang lagi..ngenangkan kat Sarawak cepat gelap, aku bergegas tukar baju & kuar berjalan kat area Water Front..nak beli buah tangan skit...lagi pun adik aku sibuk suh aku belikan dia Kain batik sarawak..Dah beli kain batik, kek lapis & kuih sarawak skit aku menghala balik to hotel..rehat jap...received call from hubby & BB, have a quick shower & went out for dinner with my colleague aku yg kat Kuching..balik hotel dah penat..usually aku ni kalu tukar tempat tido mmg susah nak lelap..tapi kali ni letak kepala terus lelap.. my family p celebrate birthday BIL aku...hubby promised to call me back once dia reached home.. disebabkan aku dah tido mati...my hubby call aku sampai ada 48 miscalls..bila aku dgr balik voice mail yg dia tinggal, he sounds soooo worry...aku hanya tersedar only by tha 49th calls..hehehehehe...kesian laki aku...

The next day tu after breakfast p mengajar...training kat state ni easier that buat kat HQ..crowd kecik so soalan pelik2 tu takde la...abis class aku need to rush to the airport...flight aku 3.45pm to Kota Kinabalu..sampai KK dah dekat kul 6pm...nak check in tu ramai la plak org..to make thing worst, petang tu ujan plak..so tak kemana la..dah la Sabah ni cepat gelap..kul 6 dah gelap...
Since hujan tak kemana la aku malam tu...after hot shower to freshen my self, aku turun for dinner kat hotel jer...malam tu after dinner call my baby...apalagi...dah 2 ari tak jumpa...mula la aku jadi minah leleh..pakai 3G boleh la lepas rindu skit..MIL siap cakap siang tu dia meragam... dia pon tau rindu kot...masa tu aku rasa lambatnya nak siang...coz nak balik hug bb aku...

The next day tu pon sama...after breakfast my fren pick me up...p ofis KK for training...class habis by noon.. after lunch my fren bawak aku p pasar besar KK...beli fresh seafood...gila aku dibuatnya...nasib la pikir tak larat nak bawak...kalu tak lagi banyak aku beli...after shopping, aku balik jap to the office for prayer..lepas semayang depa sent me to the airpport...bermulala tragedi 18th July ku....

Since awal lagi, aku meronda kat airport tu dulu...my flight should be kul 6.05..tapi aku kul 4.30 dah sampai airport..After bosan meronda kat luar, aku masuk ke departure hall..pusing2...masa still banyak...penat meronda, aku lepak kat kerusi depan flight gate..seronok tgk mat2 salleh berkeliaran depan aku...most of them akan naik satu flight ngan aku ke KL...

Masa tu lamanya aku rasa...can hardly wait to reach KL..Once gate bukak utk flight boarding, aku terus kuarkan boarding pass, angkat beg laptop aku & 1 plastik buah tangan..flight tak penuh pon..mostly mat salleh..aku pon masuk & duduk cam biasa...aku siap boleh tukar seat lagi since flight kosong...tetiba...

Alamak mana hand bag aku...pucat giler muka aku...aku siap p check kat tempat duduk asal...takde...kat overhead compartment pon takde...I must have left it masa aku kuarkan boarding pass..OH MY GOD!!!!!! berlari aku ke depan...Head steward dah start cakap2...sky bridge dah tarik dari body..gelabah giler...masa tu mmg aku bikin scene abis la...aku push head steward tu utk allow aku masuk balik...kapten keberatan nak bukak pintu coz takut delay flight coz mat2 salleh tu ada yg ada connecting flight kat KLIA..siap depa suh aku diembark & take the next plane...without my handbag camne aku nak beli tiket baru???nasib baik polisi flight yg tak allow flight terbang kalu ada luggage tanpa onwer...since aku ada baggage, depa allow aku masuk cari beg aku..kalu tak jumpa depa akan kuarkan baggage aku for me to board the next flight..

Dah ala aku pakai heel..berlari aku masuk departure hall balik..aku p balik tempat aku duduk...gugur jantung aku bila tgk beg aku takde kat situ dah...tgh aku panik dtg sorang ground staff...dia siap ckp "takpe...kita tgk CCTV"...nak tgk CCTV ker apa..flight tgh tunggu...sekali ada police airport melulu ke arah aku..tanya weither aku ada hilang beg...
bila aku jawab "Ya"dia terus bawak aku p tempat imigresen scan beg..Nasib baik la budak yg jumpa beg aku tu budak baik...Depa sibuk suh aku check samada ada benda hilang tak...to me kalu purse aku ada & semua kad still ada...it's good enuf...duit tu aku tak heran..kalu hilang pon aku takde la ralat sangat..sbb bukan byk sangat pon...Yg aku terkilan tu, aku tak sempat pass business kad aku atau mintak contact detail budak yg pulangkan beg aku tu..aku just sempat ckp kat dia yg hanya Allah sahaja yg boleh balas jasa budak tu...sepanjang flight tu aku berdoa kat Allah, mintak Allah murahkan rezeki budak tu..tak habis2 aku bersyukur kat Allah....bebudak flight attendant tu pon look so relief...masa disembark flight, aku sempat cakap TQ kat bebudak flight attendant & chief steward tu...by the namanya Rahmat..aku siap mintak depa sampaikan my thanks to the Captain..

Once sampai kat KLIA, my hubby dah siap menunggu..terus kami balik umah jer...rindu nya kat Baby aku..terus hug dia...dia pon tak habis2 merenyeh...malam tu siap tido hug dia...esoknya pon aku amik cuti semata2 utk spend time ngan dia...betul kot dia pon rindu coz usually dia tak suka aku hug dia coz dia nak lepas main..tapi ari tu siap dia yg sibuk nak hug aku...siap tido pon nak peluk aku...masa tu...rasa BESTTTTTTnya jadi seorang ibu...rasa sangat disayangi...

HARI INI DLM SEJARAH...TAMAN TASIK PERDANA

23rd June 2007

Aku tak tau kenapa hari tu aku teringin sangat nak makan Nasi Lemak Tang Ling..dah nak jadi agaknya...dah byk ari aku ajak Ariff p picnic kat Taman Tasik sambil bawak zafran jalan2..

It started bad already..aku tak pernah p beli sendiri nasik tu..Ariff pon tak pernah p..biasanya ada org belikan...tapi kali ni aku nak p sendiri...so since both of us tak pernah p, kami tak jumpa cari...so beli jer la nasik lemak kat depan gate Bukit Aman..disebabkan perangai aku yg persistance, aku insist nak cari gak gerai tu..pusing2 jumpa la akhirnya..tapi takde la singgah dah sbb dah beli...I made Ariff promise to come again nanti...

So kami p la kat Play ground Taman Tasik Perdana yg kecik...nak p yg besar tu takde parking..masa sampai tu zafran tido...so kami breakfast la dulu..elok lepas breakfast, zafran sedar..agaknya panas matahari dah mula terasa...dia pon dah start berpeluh-peluh..bangun jer dia dah sibuk nak main...rambang mata bila tgk playground..tapi aku bg dia breakfast dulu...abih makan baru aku lepas dia p main...punya la sronot dia ari tu...

babah dia bawak dia main slide & jongkang-jongkit..& lepaskan dia bebas...tak larat nak kepong sbb dia sibuk nak pungut daun2 kering yg jatuh...aku bawak dia naik slide..dia dah use to slide coz kat sekolah pon ada yg mini tu...so dia dah pandai turun sendiri...cuma kena tunggu sambut kat bawah..a few times naik..OK jer...so aku nak tunjuk kat babah dia his know how tu...1st time OK...masuk second time...aku letak dia kat platform tu..tetiba dia bangkit & lari the opposite way...aku & babah dia tak sempat pegang, dia terjatuh ikut celah2 jaring tu..about 3 feet from ground...punya la gelabah aku dibuatnya...gugur jantung aku..alhamdullillah takde fizikal injury.. Zafran punya melalak...satu playground dengar...semua mata tertumpu kat kami...nasib baik ada sorang kakak ni ni datang tolong..agaknya dia tau kami panik...dia suh kami bg zafran minum air masak..dia kata takut dia trauma & nanti demam..terus Ariff berlari ke keter amik air..nak jadi citer barang semua dah masuk keter coz kami kononya dah nak balik..last round la tu konon...After minum he still continues to cry...

Aku dah naik panik...Aku ajak Ariff bawak p Emergency...being a cool dad...Ariff boleh jawap kat aku "Ok tu...dia jatuh atas soft turf..kalu dia demam kita bawak p spital la.."but being me..1 paranoid mother, aku insist p spital...by the time masuk keter, dia dah cool skit..aku bg dia minum susu..Elok sampai depan Istana Budaya Zafran muntah..bersembur kuar semua breakfast dia & susu...masa tu Tuhan saja yg tau perasaan aku..sebab aku ingat aku baca kat SI, kalu baby muntah lepas jatuh, it's a bad sign..

Masa tu mula la Ariff pecut p Ampang Putri..tapi aku kekadang heran ngan spital kat M'sia ni...nama jer Emergency..tapi lembab nak mampus gak..*sensored*Apa tak nya...aku sampai sana kul 11.00, kul 2pm baru settle..kalu korang pernah tgk drama melayu yg nak tiru siri ER tu...sama la...slow jer...tak nampak urgent pon...masa masuk jumpa MO tu..Dr tu cam takde benda pon..mungkin to her simple case..tapi HELLOOOOO...anak aku jatuh 3 feet above the ground..dia belek2 kepala zafran...pastu cakap takde benda coz takde physical injury...Ariff plak tanya Dr takmo scan ker...Dia jawab kalu nak kepastian samada ada concusion atau tak kena la scan..ada ker????mesti la kita nak kepastian...aku dah cakap kat dia zafran muntah on the way to hospital..dia siap tanya BB tak demam ker???kot la dia muntah sebab demam..masa tu aku rasa cam nak plangkong jer Dr tu...At last baru la dia suh buat CT Scan..

Nak tunggu turn utk scan punya la lama...Zafran yg terjelepek tu siap dah recover & buleh jalan2 kat Emergency pon blom sampai turn...sampai Ariff p tanya Nurse weither Emergency case kena tunggu turn gak ker...punya la lembab..to me emergency case sepatutnya dapat priority...ni tak...kalu ikut nurse tu queue mmg ikut emergency tapi ari tu ramai...from my observation aku tak nampak pon patients yg lain tu yg nak kena buat CT Scan..Just imagine kena tunggu about sejam lebih..

Masuk jer bilik Scan tu Zafran cam cuak...that room itself spooks him..punya la melalak...aku siap suh bedung zafran..if not dia akan meronta...1st round, babah yg pegang zafran..but they can get a clear shot of his head..kalu ikut staff yg handle scan tu, biasanya baby dia akan put to sleep tapi sbb zafran jatuh diorang don't want to take the risk..depa takut the medication akan relaxkan muscle otak dia & the result will not be accurate..After the 1st unsuccessful trial, Dr suh relaxkan dia...so terpaksa la bawak dia kuar..kena pujuk sampai la dia lalok & tertido...but once letak dia atas katil utk scan tu dia sedar & start meronta balik...kali ni Ibu plak yg pegang...aku yg dalam dok sakit pinggang tu terpaksa la wrestle ngan dia..punya la pujuk..habis semua nursery rhymes yg aku tau aku nyanyi...abih semua zikir yg aku hafal aku lagukan..zafran akan cool tapi bila lampu scan tu nyala atas kepala dia dia mula nangis...susah gile nak dapatkan position yg dia dok diam for 2 minutes..berpeluh la aku dibuatnya...kirala once abih tu, staff yg handle scan tu gelakkan aku...apa taknya...bilik tu sejuk gile...cam dlm peti ais...tapi aku peluh menjejer..

Once dapat result p la balik ngadap MO tu...alhamdullillah takde benda...No blood clots..takde bengkak..no nothing..kalu ingatkan mmg serik nak bawak dia p playground...tapi Laili advice aku yg budak belajar dr experience..kalu kita halang dia main cam kita halang dia punya devt..TQ laili for your advise..

Sekali lagi aku ada bad experience with PMCare..sampai selesai scan & jumpa MO, bill clearance tak dapat2..Payment Counter Ampang Putri tunjuk kat aku slip fax dia fax kul 12.30..masa tu dah kul 1.30pm..sapa tak hangin..dah la tu..call tak jawab..naik pendek jari aku tekan redial...last2 dapat...ada ker PMCare ckp depa ada masalah teknikal...takkan la setiap kali nak dptkan clearance ada masalah teknikal...cokia sgt ker fax kat PMcare tu??sebal gile aku..siap Customer Service dia kena maki ngan aku..aku rasa satu Emeregency Room tu dgr aku maki...Aku siap tanya mamat tu "You ingat best ker duduk spital ni???Kalu I boleh lagi la...Ni my son...sakit plak tu...You ingat org sihat ker datang spital???Kesian gak ler kat mamat tu...tapi aku dah geram tahap gaban...asyik kena jer...dah lepas maki tu baru malu sbb semua mata tertumpu kat aku...laki aku biasala...he's so cool...aku pon kekadang wish aku boleh sabar cam dia..

The whole day tu zafran cam tak active sangat..by malam baru dia aktif balik...malam tu plak dia dok main ngan pump asthma dia..nak jadi cerita, dia terlekat penutup inhaler tu dlm mulut plak..melalak la bila dia takleh katup mulut..masa nak korek kuar tu, lelangit dia tergores skit...punya la melalak...malam tu tak nak minum susu...pedih agaknya..

23rd June 2007 adalah hari malang bagi kami sekeluarga.

Zafran Dah boleh Jalan

1 year & 1 month...
At last Zafran boleh berdiri & walk independently..skang tgh sibuk berjalan...tapi bukan berjalan...berlari dalam erti kata sebenar...mana taknya...jalan takde break punye...silap haribulan langgar dinding...hehehehehe

skang tak larat nak kutip la plak...sibuk la nak ngekor...aku nak masuk dapur pon rimas...kekadang tu kalu lupa tutup safety gate..tetiba dia dah ada kat belakang aku..bahaya tul...dibuatnya aku tgh angkat periuk ker...aku ni dah la kuat melatah...

Bila dikenang balik cam kejap jer dah setahun...zafran pon dah boleh jalan...cam baru jer bawak balik dari hospital..kalu dulu he used to love to be cuddled & hugged, skang ni susah tul..kalu kita hug dia mesti sibuk nak p main..tu la aku selalu ckp kat org yg tak nak breast feed anak...rugi oooo..masa breast feed tu la boleh hug & cuddle baby..bila cam aku ni..dah tak leh dah..boleh la kejap...pastu dia suh lepas dia coz dia nak p main..skang ni nak isap susu pon taknak duk atas aku dah..nak isap susu sambil tgk TV..rugi tul la...kalu nak suh dia hug & kiss tu kena tunggu mood dia elok...nanti he'll come on his own..siap kiss yg sampai lencun muka tu...dia ada habit baru...kalu salam org (salam cium tgn), dia akan kiss aku balik after dia salam org...usually after dia salam teacher (masa nak balik) dia akan kiss aku..salam 5 cikgu means i'll get 5 kisses...heheheh...cikgu dia kata nak bg adil...

aku perasan zafran ni jenis manja...Nonie selalu cakap zafran ni ada character aku...manja & ngada-ngada...hehehehe...agaknya he's used to that during his time in my tummy..agaknya hari2 dok rasa & dengar ibu dia dok melese..Aku perasan zafran suka buat muka & pose cute yg membuatkan aku tak jadi nak marah dia...sometime he'll give his chicky look...he's so adorable...

Aku notice one thing..he's so possessive...kaki jeles..skang ni kalu org amik toys dia atau try to be close to me or his dad...sure dia ngamuk...kalu org amik toys dia...dia akan p rampas balik...cousins atau kawan2 kat sekolah takleh pegang barang dia...

Ari tu masa balik KB, Tok Mi presentkan dia 1 teddy bear...obses giler ngan teddy tu...org lain tak leh amik..not even babah & ibu..dia akan usung kehulu-kehilir teddy tu...cuma aku tak bagi dia bawak p sekolah coz takut dia gaduh ngan kawan2 plak berebut bendalah tu..

cuma yg paling menakutkan aku skang ni...dia dah start melalak bila tak dapat apa yg dia nak...aku takut dia jadi cam kids yg selama ni aku tgk melalak & golek2 kat kedai sbb tak dpt toys/food yg dia nak...zafran skang ni will only stop bile dpt apa yg dia nak...ie bila dia tak mo duduk dlm car seat dia...dia akan melalak cam kena dera sampai sedu sedan...sampai la aku angkat & riba dia...yg aku hangin tu...setitis air mata pon takde...

Apapapon...he's now a boy...but he'll forever be my baby...

The Secret to a Lasting Marriage: Embrace Imperfection

I really like this article...

When I was a little girl, my mom liked to make breakfast
food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in
particular when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work.

On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage,
and extremely burned toast in front of my dad. I remember waiting to
see if anyone noticed! Yet, all my dad did was reached for his toast,
smiled at my mom, and asked me how my day was at school.

I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember
watching him smear butter and jelly on that toast and eat every bite!
When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mom
apologize to my dad for burning the toast. And I'll never forget what
he said: "Baby, I love burned toast."

Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if
he really liked his toast burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said,
"Debbie, your mommy put in a hard day at work today and she's real
tired. And besides, a little burnt toast never hurt anyone!"

In bed that night, I thought about that scene at dinner...and the
kindness my daddy showed my mom. To this day, it's a cherished memory
from my childhood that I'll never forget. And it's one that came to
mind just recently when Jack and I sat down to eat dinner.

I had arrived home late...as usual...and decided we would have
breakfast food for dinner. Some things never change, I suppose!

To my amazement, I found the ingredients I needed, and quickly began
to cook eggs, turkey sausage, and buttered toast. Thinking I had
things under control, I glanced through the mail for the day. It was
only a few minutes later that I remembered that I had forgotten to
take the toast out of the oven!

Now, had it been any other day -- and had we had more than two pieces
of bread in the entire house -- I would have started all over. But it
had been one of those days and I had just used up the last two pieces
of bread. So burnt toast it was!

As I set the plate down in front of Jack, I waited for a comment about
the toast. But all I got was a "Thank you!" I watched as he ate bite
by bite, all the time waiting for some comment about the toast. But
instead, all Jack said was, "Babe, this is great. Thanks for cooking
tonight. I know you had a hard day."

As I took a bite of my charred toast that night, I thought about my
mom and dad...how burnt toast hadn't been a deal-breaker for them.
And I quietly thanked God for giving me a marriage where burnt toast
wasn't a deal-breaker either!

You know, life is full of imperfect things...and imperfect people. I'm
not the best housekeeper or cook. And you might be surprised to find
out that Jack isn't the perfect husband! He likes to play his music
too loud, he will always find a way to avoid yard work, and he watches
far too many sports. Believe it or not, watching "Golf Academy" is not
my idea of a great night at home!

But somehow in the past 37 years Jack and I have learned to accept the
imperfections in each other. Over time, we have stopped trying to make
each other in our own mold and have learned to celebrate our
differences.
You might say that we've learned to love each other for who we really
are!


For example, I like to take my time, I'm a perfectionist, and I'm
even-tempered. I tend to work too much and sleep too little. Jack, on
the other hand, is disciplined, studious, an early riser, and is a
marketer's dream consumer. I count pennies and Jack could care less!
Where he is strong, I am weak, and vice versa.

And while you might say that Jack and I are opposites, we're also very
much alike. I can look at him and tell you what he's thinking. I can
predict his actions before he finalizes his plans. On the other hand,
he knows whether I'm troubled or not the moment I enter a room.

We share the same goals. We love the same things. And we are still
best friends. We've traveled through many valleys and enjoyed many
mountaintops. And yet, at the same time, Jack and I must work every
minute of every day to make this thing called "marriage" work!

What I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each
other's faults - and choosing to celebrate each other's differences -
is the one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing,
and lasting marriage relationship.

And that's my prayer for you today. That you will learn to take the
good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your married life and lay them at
the feet of GOD. Because in the end, He's the only One who will be
able to give you a marriage where burnt toast isn't a deal-breaker!

Have a great day! May God bless your marriage.

ABSCESS aka BISUL?????

What an interesting topic to write about...muahahahahahahah
Mohamad Amir Zafran bin Mohd Ariff naik bisul for the 1st time of his life....
It all started like this...

Last week aku & Babah dia dah notice ada tiny dot kat bum2 dia..just cam kena gigit nyamuk jer...so aku takde la pikir apa...pastu aku perasan cam ada nanah...but the size still cute jer...2-3 hari pastu nanah cam dah hilang...aku ingat dah pecah la...so aku buat derk jer la...hoping that it will subside...

Ari Ahad masa kat KB badan dia panas...demam la tu...tapi yg herannya dia tak cam biasa...biasanya kalu demam mesti dia mengada-ngada...nak bertempek jer...tapi kali ni different...ngamuk jer...semua tak betul...tido takmo...hug takmo..tapi makan lalu jerk...tetiba Babah dia teringat..."Yang...entah2 bisul dia bengkak tak???" Bila Babah dia bukak diaper...nah nko...bengkak giler..merah sebelah bontot...

aku bawak dia p clinic kat KB...doktor tu bg la PCM + antibiotik...according to her ada 50% probability utk bisul tu surut..kalu tak surut dia akan masak & pecah..kalu dah masak kena la bawak p hospital utk buat minor surgery...she gave us 3 days...dia kata kalu after 3 days tak surut kena p spital...

so ari Selasa kami balik KL..but his abscess tak surut gak...so ari Rabu aku bawak dia p APSH..dah musim cuti sekolah ni...so doktor ramai yg cuti...termasuk la pead zafran & dr amin tai, the pead surgeon...so clinic Dr amin refer zafran to pead on call...which is Dr Christoper Lim...aku ngan Dr Lim ni kurang skit...coz dia cam kalut & cakap pon susah nak paham...but no choice la...bila jumpa Dr Lim, dia suh amik antibotik yg jap coz according to him yg oral dah tak jalan...masa tu bisul tu cam dah bentan..tak masak2 & butt zafran dah keras giler...so dia kata nak pecahkan pon takleh..the antibiotik was supposed to cairkan nanah tu so that boleh Dr amin boleh potong & buang...tensen giler aku masa tu...antibiotik tu kena amik 2 kali sehari...just imagine nak p hospital 2 kali sehari...

A day after day (Khamis)...aku bawak zafran for follow up & take the jap...Dr Lim cakap dah boleh potong...dia cakap nanti Dr Amin pecahkan skit jer & kuarkan darah...so dia foward p Dr Amin...which luckily ari tu dah masuk kerja...p jumpa Dr Amin...kat Day ward...masa tu kul 10.30am..tengok jer muka Dr Amin...zafran dah melalak...cam tau2 jer...ataupon dia cuak tgk dr amin pakai baju OT...dia cakap kul 12.30 nak operate zafran...OPERATE???pakai GA??? what???kecut perut aku...so dia suh zafran admit...aku ingat kan it's just a minor surgery & he just need to stay at the day ward..rupanya tidak...there go my work...aku dah la tengah berlambak kerja sebab dah byk ari cuti...but as usual...my boss is an understanding lady...to her when it comes to FAMILY..it will be the priority...

just imagine zafran only had his breakfast at 9.00am...& kena puasa sampai kul 12.30tgh..just imagine camne keadaan dia...ngamuk sakan la..lapar...masa aku bawak masuk p OT tu dia dah start ngamuk2..pujuk pon dah tak jalan...Nurse inform kata aku boleh masuk OT pujuk dia sampai bius tu take effect...pastu kena kuar...aku ingat boleh tengok...so aku terpaksa la tukar baju...pakai baju OT gak... lagi la zafran melalak..by kul 1 baru nurse suh aku bawak zafran masuk OT...dah 2 kali aku masuk OT tapi kali ke3 ni aku masuk berjalan..bukan cam dulu...kena tolak atas katil...once letak zafran atas katil tu...anasthetist letak mask kat dia...tak sampai 10 second dia dah tido...cam penat jer aku tukar baju...

tgh tunggu nurse panggil...sempat pose pastu sambung nangis balik...

Babah cakap ni Dr Ibu....
baju surgery 4 baby cam kain langsir...

That procedure tu kejap sangat...elok jer aku tukar baju, nurse masuk day ward amik katil utk letak zafran...cam tak caya...all the procedure tu took about 15 min...once he was pushed to the recovery room, nurse panggil aku masuk...aku masuk jer dengar sore dia dok melalak...la....dah sedar rumanya...Nurse suh aku comfort dia....hug dia...elok aku nak angkat...aku nampak darah meleleh kuar dari plaster...cuak aku...nurse pon kelam kabut jadinya...diorang cakap darah kuar coz zafran dok meronta2..i can imagine his pain...Dr amin datang...tukarkan gosh..walllaa...but still zafran dok melalak lagi...semua tak betul...it takes a while to comfort him...

Once dah masuk bilik, nurse cakap dah boleh bg susu...walaupon hati aku terdetik BOLEH KER???sebab setahu aku kena tunggu dia kentut atau sendawa dulu...kalu tak mesti muntah...tapi depa kata boleh...who am I to question them...so aku bg la susu..zafran yg mmg sedianya lapar...mmg minum tak henggat la...(minum dlm tangis..boleh jd tajuk lagu tu)..as suspected...baru 2/3 dia minum...buekkkkk...muntah lewahhh la....agaknya gas bius tu tendang...siap kentut lagi...masa tu abih cadar spital tu...nasib la..depa yg cakap boleh...lepas tu baru la dia boleh minum...dah abih 1/3 balance susu tu boleh sambung plak mkn porridge...mmg anak aku lapar giler la tu...bukan sikit dia makan...kalu satu serving tu org tua pon boleh kenyang...dia boleh mkn 3/4...giler kagum aku...pastu siap boleh senyum2 & sembang lagi...

1 hour after that dia dah boleh main dlm cot dia...siap dah mundar mandir berdiri dalam cot lg...lepas aku solat zuhur...aku bawak dia p playroom...kesian aku tgk dia dok main dlm cot tu...kalu kat umah boleh la dia melasak...kat dlm bilik nak lepas kat mana...dah la tak dpt single room...lagi la leceh...

playing kat play room 2 hours after operation...
anak aku ternyata lasak...tak tau sakit ker???

1/6/07, Dr Amin kata dah boleh balik...tapi kena buat dressing dulu...lepas pd tu kitorang kena buat dressing sendiri kat umah, 2 kali sehari...masa Dr cakap tu kitorang ingat OK la...coz masa kat recovery room tu aku tgk opening tu cam kecik jer...kalu korang boleh imagine...besar tutup minyak yuyi jer...

Slightly b4 1pm, nurse suh kami bawak zafran p treatment room...masa tu OK lagi...once dia bukak plaster zafran tu...aku still macho...pastu nurse nak kuarkan "peck" aka gosh yg dr bubuh dlm opening tu...bila nurse tu tarik kuar...aku mula seriau...apa taknya panjang giler gosh tu...once semua gosh kuar, aku tgk opening dia...gile dalam...about 1 ruas ibu jari...masa tu pucat aku...kalu toreh pisau pon mau tak berdarah tu...dan Babah dia yg sememangnya takut darah tu plak cakap..."I don't think I can do the dressing..Kita bawak dia p clinic jer la"Zafran masa tu melalak tak hengat la...tambah plak nurse dok flush ngan saline...pedih agaknya...Aku tak leh imagine betapa sakitnya dia masa tu...i'm trying to put myself in his shoe...tak sanggup mak...tapi seperti biasa anak aku yg macho ni cepat recover...once depa siap dressing & ganti plaster baru & hantar dia masuk bilik...dia dah start melasak balik...kekadang aku wonder...anak aku ni tau makna sakit ker tak....gambar bawah ni taken about 1 hour after that...

Presentation ari ni is on How to overcome the pain...by Mr Amir Zafran

since 1/6 tu ari jumaat, babah dia tinggal kitaorang & went for Friday Prayer...elok kul 2 zafran poopoo plak...aku dah gelabah...camne nak handle sesorang ni...mesti kena tukar plaster...sure meronta tak hengat la...call Babah...nasib baik babah dah on the way p spital...aku dok ingat kalu lambat aku nak suh one of the nurse jer tolong aku..

After dah cebok & nak tukar plaster, Aku & babah dia siap kagum lagi...the opening tu boleh heal so fast...dah takde le sedalam masa dressing tadi...mmg sepatutnya camtu atau sebab zafran hari2 makan jeli gamat???since dah tak dalam sangat we decided boleh la buat dressing sendiri...

Funny thing is that...01/06/07 ni adalah hari pertama Babah dia report duty kat SAPURA...pagi tu masa babah nak pergi..aku susah hati sungguh...dok pikir camne nak bawak dia balik...camne nak buat discharge procedure...sapa nak tgk zafran...coz Tok Wan & Aki will only sampai KL in the afternoon... Nasib baik la Boss baru Babah very understanding...after reported for duty & babah citer kat dia pasal zafran kat spital dia bg off kat babah...

Aku nak meluahkan rasa tak puah hati aku kat HMO company aku ni...that is PMCARE...kerja cam gampang...geram tul aku...Dr Amin release kul 11, kul 12 Account Dept hantar request for discharge advice to PMCare...Kul 4 baru dia kuarkan discharge advise tu...tu pon after aku call opis mate aku yg handle Medical..tak cukup ngan tu, aku call PMcare, aku ngamuk la...alasan depa sbb ari jumaat...so what???laki aku pon p solat gak...kul 2 dah sampai spital balik...don't tell me their staff p wirid & gulung sejadah kat masjid...mmg hangin tul la...

so sampai ari ni (4/6) kami still la dok buat dressing kat luka tu...pg tadi aku risau gak masa hantar dia p nursery...takut cikgu2 tu takleh handle the luka...tapi tgh ari tadi aku p nursery, one of the teacher said dia boleh buat after tgk cara aku buat pg tadi masa tukar diaper dia...alhamdullillah ada teacher yg experience skit...cuma tadi aku mintak depa ensure his butt & bird dicuci bersih everytime tukar diaper...takut infection plak...

Semalam bawak dia p check up kat panel clinic, Dr Aminah cakap it's healing nicely...bersih & tunggu masa utk tertutup jer...Hopefully dia recover ASAP...insya Allah...

Family Day @ Desa Water Park ~ 5/5/07

5th May 2007
Aku nyibuk join reunion UUM IT batch aku...nak buat camne...crony aku masa study dulu mostly budak IT...so secara tak langsung aku termasuk dlm group tu...bila depa cakap nak buat reunion, aku dgn nyibuk nye nak join...ye la dah lama benar tak jumpa kengkawan ni...ada yg dah 9 tahun tak jumpa...sampai ada yg aku lupa nama depa...muahahaha...kpd sesapa yg aku lupa nama tu thousand apology...

dah la numpang reunion org...siap boleh numpang celebrate birthday anak aku sekali plak tu...mmg kaki sibuk aku ni...after berkira2 AJK suh aku sponsor buah...so kena la sampai awal2 sbb epal tu nak bg masa registration...

aku sampai dlm kul 9.15am...call ina...still on the way coz dia bawak Is p minum dulu...nasib baik Kak Chomb, Muneer & Yoep dah sampai...punya la strict budak jg tiket DWP tu...9.25 pon tak bg kami masuk lagi...nak juga2 tunggu 9.30am...ntahapahapantah...

masuk dlm breakfast was provided...macam tak ikhlas jer nasik lemak dia tu...lunch pon hampeh gak...dah la tu...makanan & minuman pagi yg tak habis siap boleh bawak balik kitchen tu...mana buleh...kitaorang dah bayar la....pakkan jer tak leh bawak makanan sendiri...aku rasa aku masak lagi best dari tu..muahahahahahah...masuk bakul angkat sendiri...Brp la dia caj makanan tu ekkk???

Tak kisah la pasal makan tu...coz objective utama aku ialah nak gather balik ngan kengkawan...aku ingat aku sorang jer yg jenis lupa nama org ni...ada gak 2-3 org cam aku...nasib baik kami dok merisik cover2...so at last buleh ingat balik la nama semua org...

It was a fun day...jumpa old fren...sembang2...bawak my son mandi...he really enjoys the slides tapi dia takut air bila aku letak dia dlm float...hishh...penakut tul anak aku ni...siap melalak tu... buat malu aku jerk...& my son celebrate birthday sekali ngan anak Didi & anak Adik...

Dan before aku blah...we manage to take the group photo...tu yg mahal tu...
ni link to gambar2 yg Yoep tangkap...

http://new.photos.yahoo.com/sepaiderrmen/album/576460762400476881

Ni plak gambar2 yg Ariff tangkap...

Telematch Org Dewasa...

Hubby Ayu yg terrer baling belon... tapi depa main 2 org jer...

Anak aku yg ye-ye-o pakai swimming trunk tapi takut air...

Telematch utk anak2...
Birthday Bash for 3..
Kek Zafran

kek Iman..anak Didi

Group Photo...
meriah betul...penuh gambar sbb skang most dah ada handbag 2-3 biji sorang...

Birthday Zafran...Setahun sudah berlalu...

Dah setahun umur anak aku ni...macam baru jer aku melalui saat sakit nak beranak tu..
Aku still ingat...kul 5.00am, nurse kejut aku coz nak masukkan ubat utk induce bersalin...aku ada hi-blood so doktor don't wanna take the risk...so i was advise to induce my labour..2 jam tak leh bergerak..just imagine camne rasanya...
kul 8.30 my gynae masuk...1st time rasa kena seluk...cuak giler...doktor siap suh aku relax to avoid rasa sakit tu...dah bukak 3cm...doktor suh siap nak masuk labour room...cuak tuhan jer yg tahu...masa misi masuk nak tolak aku...aku siap cakap aku nak qada' solat subuh aku dulu...aku tak leh nak semayang coz 2 jam tak leh gerak...by the time boleh gerak, subuh dah habis...bukan apa...aku terfikir...kalu la aku meninggal masa melahirkan...at least aku dah qada' semayang aku...ye la org selalu cakap beranak ni bertarung nyawa...
kul 9 misi bawak masuk wheel chair nak tolak aku...tapi masa tu dgn berlagaknya aku cakap aku nak jalan...so aku jalan la p labour room tu...ada a few people kat depan labour room tu yg terpusing kepala tgk aku jalan sendiri p labour room...
masuk jer labour room...misi bawak satu jarum besar..panjang giler...terkujat aku dibuatnya... siap tanya nak buat apa ngan jarum tu...rupanya nak pecahkan water beg aku..."poop"tu la sound yg aku dengar..agaknya tu la bunyi water bag pecah...yg bestnya dah pecah water bag tapi takde air yg kuar...nurse siap seluk 2 - 3 kali nak ensure betul ker...nurse yg senior tu siap buat assumption yg air aku kurang...tapi seingat aku masa last scan tu doktor cakap air aku just nice jer...air hanya keluar after 4 hours later...kul 1..tetiba rasa panas jer ngalir...sepanjang 4 hours tu...aku hanya dilute 4 cm...doktor masuk check kul 2pm..tanya aku weither aku nak amik any pain killer tak...masa tu aku cam berlagak jer...aku tak mo amik apa2...coz aku nak rasa sakit beranak tu...my contraction dah makin rapat...selang 5 minit...after 5 hours, ada senior nurse ni masuk seluk aku lagi...since aku tak progressing, dia advise aku amik jap...so that aku relax skit & baby more relax utk turun...bayangkan la...after taking that jap...aku boleh lena samapi 2 jam..cam tak rasa jer sakit tu...eventhough contraction aku makin kuat...tapi still aku tak dilute...aku cam dah letih...bayangkan 7 hours dlm labour room...aku tengok ariff pon dah letih semacam...
Kul 4 doktor masuk lagi...still aku tak dilute...doktor tanya aku my opinion tapi since this is my 1st born...bukannya aku tau apa...aku tanya doktor balik...what's her suggestion...dia suggest aku to go 4 C-sect since aku dah lama pecah air & i was not progressing as expected...dia takut baby lemas..so just imagine after 7 hours...last2 kena C-Sect...kalu aku tau...awal2 lagi aku choose C-Sect...tak yah double pain...
4.30 I was pushed to the OT..this is my second time being push to OT...1st dulu masa buat Ovarian drilling...still gave me the creep..last thing i remember...the anesthetist ask me to start counting...aku ingat sampai 3 jer kot...
Aku sedar cam lalok jer...my throat hurt..cam gatai gile..cam org batuk tak lepas...aku cam mimpi jer yg aku cabut my oxigen mask tu...aku siap cam dengar daktor marah nurse sebab allow aku bukak oxigen mask tu...tapi semua tu very blur jer...aku drift on & off to sleep...
Last sekali aku sedar bila nurse kejut aku kata dah habis...I saw my hubby standing there in the Recovery Room...masa tu aku bleh nampak mata dia bergenang..He kissed me & thanked me for the lovely healthy baby boy...According to my hubby, dia tanya doktor knp i tak dilute...dktor suspect sebab embilical cord zafran pendek...so dia tak leh turun bawah...
The baby weigth 3.47kg...a very chubby one...hubby tunjuk aku gambar yg dia dah tangkap thru camera phone dia...bulat giler muka dia...cam piring...my hubby siap cakap awal2 yg my baby cam ada cleft lip..aku tau dia bg tau aku sebab takut aku terkejut..aku still ingat..aku siap nangis lagi....a long wait has come to an end...now I'm blessed with MOHAMAD AMIR ZAFRAN...
Aku ingat lagi kul 6pm...nurse tolak masuk my baby to my room..that was my first sight of my baby..he's sooooo cute...chubby just like me & hubby..since aku C-Sect takleh la aku nak hug him kuat2...the nurse just lay him next to me...i still can remember...dia bukak mata...i was so surprise...i thought new born takleh bukak mata lagi...dia mewarisi mata sepet ku...nurse suh aku Breastfeed...first time...mmg kekok habis...but to my surprise Zafran pandai hisap...aku nangis lagi..
Dr pembacaan aku, I request for zafran to be rooming in ngan aku...so that i can BF him whenever he needs..satu jer aku notice perangai Zafran ni...He's an ACTOR...from the very begining...aku ingat lagi masa tu 2nd day aku kat spital...malam kul 11pm...nurse masuk check on us...he was sleeping soundly...nurse siap puji dia..."Alaaaa...baiknya dia..."lepas a few steps nurse tutup pintu bilik...dia start melalak bagai nak rak...From that very moment sampai la skang...org akan cakap he's such a good boy...behave & tak byk ckp...padahal...kalu takde org...dialah raja...

A year has passed...Those was when i underwent the labour process...mengeluarkan MOHAMAD AMIR ZAFRAN untuk melihat dunia...which might be cruel to him one day...
Now he's a healthy (despite of his asthmatic prob), funny & mischiveous boy..He's the joy of my life...Insya Allah I'll try my very best to raise him menjadi seorang muslim yg sejati dan anak yg soleh...aminnnn.....

Ni la gambar2 taken on his birthday...

Comotnya anak ibu ni....baru lepas makan..

Saya dah boleh berdiri...infact dah melangkah 2-3 langkah..

Me....

Renungan Makrifat...

waaaaa...ngantuknya..
Muka toye ku...

bye ibu....zafran nak p tido...

jom la ibu...kita p tido...

duduk dgn tegap...

membuntangkan mata yg sepet...
Zafran ni low maintenance...tak yah beli toys yg mahal2...recycle jer...plastik gulung reben pon boleh...

cute tak saya ni???

kasi close up skit...

Zafran on neb...on birthday pon kena gak...coz he's so chesty...since balik dr penang ari tu...

The future pilot for fighter jet...boleh ke org lelah jd pilot???muahahahhha

yeaaaaaa....

Bak...(tu la cara dia minta brg...)

Sayang chicky...

wah...bestnya channel 63 ni...

LABOR DAY cum WESAK DAY cum BIRTHDAY IBU...

Hehehehehee...dah naik bersarang rupanya blog aku ni...sarang apa yg tak dak...sarang spider, sarang burung....sarang kelawaq pon dah ada...
lately ni aku sibuk giler...since ada job enhancement ni...tak menang tangan...ni dok doa cepat la dapat assisstant...aku dah tak daya...deliverables aku pon drop...ye la mana nak prepare report...mana nak attend meeting...expectation boss plak menggunung...poning mak dibuatnya...

Pening with the workloads...so aku pon amik peluang untuk cuti panjang la...
aku sewa apartment TM kat Penang for 2 nites...saja bawak one big famili p jalan2...bawak mama & papa yg lom habis jet leg lagi...bawak Abg Lee satu famili..kami p 2 keter...Actually Penang is our (me & hubby) must visit annualy place...both of us mmg suka lepak penang ni...p layan shopping baju2 dr india kat chulia street...layan nasik kandar kat Line Clear @ Subaidah...yg paling best p shopping kat Feringgi Nite Market...biasanya aku ni kalu p Nite market tu harus la p end to end punya...tapi kali ni sebab bawak MIL & baby kena la satisfied with half way jer...balik KL on 1st May tu...which happen to be my birthday...
Ni antara gambar2 taken during our trip to Penang...

zafran tak berapa sihat masa kat penang...

this is his comfort thing..his hankie...

ye-ye-o pakai swimming trunk...bila letak kat air, melalak bagai nak runtuh resort tu...

This year is my first year celebrating birthday as a mum...syahdu tul bila hubby & baby kiss me & wish happy birthday...yg lagi bestnya birthday aku & zafran hanya selang 3 days..nasib baik masa choose date utk induce zafran dulu Dr Fauziah tak allow aku go for 1st May...kalu tak...mesti birthday aku & zafran serentak...

2nd May tu famili belah hubby buat birthday bash for both of us...masa tu teringat my mum...if only my mum kat KL to celebrate our birthday with us...Ni first time aku celebrate birthday aku without my mum...usually aku akan balik KB for my birthday...tapi kali ni sebab ada holiday plan ni..& baru jer balik KB early april ari tu...so tak balik KB la...

Insyaallah aku akan balik KB next school holiday ni..nak balik tgk my newborn cousin...Nur Khalish Humairah..nanti aku post citer pasal Khalish bila aku balik dr jumpa dia...

Chinese New Year (18-21 February 2007) - Part 2

We continue the journey...this time to...

Aquaria...
21/2/2007 (Wednesday)

Me & hubby take an extra leave to entertain my mum...ingatkan hari ni tak ramai orang kat Aquaria..rupanya Q utk amik tiket masuk panjang giler.. Nasib baik ada sitting lounge yg dok pusing short documentary pasal aquaria...at least can keep zafran entertained for a while...tu pon ujung2 tu aku kena bawak dia jalan2 kat area ticket lobby tu..

RM28 per entry...at least it worth it...tak macam Eye on Malaysia tu...mahal & kena beratur panjang tapi takde benda...at least yg ni Zafran was so excited bila tengok ikan2 tu...he got the chance to touch the starfish... seperti biasa dia tak takut pun..tu pon kena kontrol...kalu tak mau dia campak starfish tu...

Kagum gile tengok ikan2 tu...ada yg besar gile..infact the fish appear 30% less the actual size due to the glass...besar tu...since zafran is so excited about the fish...insya allah aku akan bawak dia p balik kat situ bila dia dah besar skit lagi...maybe choose a weekday..so tak crowded sangat and he can really enjoy himself...aku perasan dia skang in the stage of observation...he'll observe everything around him...very attentive...infact baru mlm tadi aku perasan dia layan animal planet dgn penuh kekusyukan...

Ni some of the photos taken during the visit to Aquaria...

Ikan tu nama apa Bu??

In Rain Forest area...

wahhh...besarnya ikan tu...Besar dari Ibu kan???

Penat..relax jap..

Org nak tengok ikan..depa sibuk nak tangkap gambar la plak...

Zafran & Tok Mi

Kat sini pon ada ikan gak la...

Ibu, Babah & beloved Zafran..

Kat sini pon ada ikan besar gak..

Moral of the day..
Anak aku mmg suka tengok binatang..
At least this visit worth it....everybody enjoy themselves..